INTELLIGENT ENERGY

 He said he has a problem.
I said, no, your ego has a problem, and you are not your ego.
Prove I am not my ego.
When you are asleep, do you have any problems?  When your mind is silent, do you have any problems?  
If I am not my mind and ego, what am I?
You are energy being you.  The word awareness is as close as a word can get to that state.  You are who is aware of your mind, ego, emotions, body, or state of beingness, or state of existence.
Prove I am the one who is aware?  Because when I am asleep and my mind is silent, I am not aware that my mind is asleep or silent.  By your logic, I am not my ego, not my mind, not the one who is aware.  And don’t used the words consciousness, observer or watcher, either, since when I am asleep I am not conscious, not observing, and not watching.  So what am I?
Awareness, consciousness, observer, watcher, mind, ego, are just words attempting to explain a state of being.  Let’s put it another way.
Whether awake or asleep, a portion of the energy and intelligence that is life, is playing a human called you.  Intelligent energy (in the form of a body, mind, emotions) is temporarily playing a human named you.  When a human is asleep IT’S awareness, mind, ego, observer, watcher, consciousness is dormant, but the energy and intelligence that is life, is never dormant.
Conclusion: The intelligent energy-form that your ego thinks is you is a temporary manifestation of intelligent energy playing a human.  
Humans have self-aware minds, egos that think they are the names they were given at birth.  
Humans are a creation, are toys that intelligent energy morphed itself into so it could toy, play, entertain, flirt, diddle and experience the total range of emotional energies available by being different energy-forms, by being and experiencing  every person, place and thing its intelligent energy can morph into.

I am at the energy store.

 I am at the energy store.  I need some energy to create with, and some energy to power what I create, however, after the human experience, the last thing I want to create is another self-ware species.  That was a disaster.

Anyway, here I am at the energy store.  The cool thing about energy there is only one kind, it’s called Source Energy.  We just call it Source, and with it you can create whatever energy types you’ve a mind to, even a mind, and yes, even a self-aware mind with a body and emotions.

You can create a sun, air, water, a planet, soil, animals, vegetables and even things no one can see, like ghosts, thoughts, memories.  The list of things you can create with energy is endless.

There is a way to configure Source Energy into self-replicating energy.  If you do that it will produce a conscious, self-aware and intelligent energy-form.  And those energy-forms then come to the energy store and build shit.

The word energy is just a word to describe the building blocks of creation.  No one really knows what else to call it.  It is believed that energy has always existed, and that there’s only so much of it.  It is also believed that once you create something, once you organize energy into a form, the form is temporary.  It will eventually un form and return to Source Energy.  Another way to say it is Source Energy is boundless, unlimited, and infinite, but when made into forms, the forms are bound, limited, finite.

Brain and thoughts focus consciousness.

 Brain and thoughts focus consciousness.   When brain is silent, consciousness expands.  Brain limits consciousness.  Brain and Ego limits consciousness.  Brain and ego have a job to do–create a temporary personal persona consciousness to experience limited, bound and finite consciousness.

Reduce your thoughts, reduce your ego, eliminate mind created self, and you experience infinite, unbound, unlimited consciousness.

Unbound, unlimited, infinite consciousness that is in through and roundabout all things, that is all present, all knowing, all powerful took on human form with brain, mind, emotions to limit its consciousness to experience the uniqueness of limited experiences.

When a limited human consciousness awakens to its predicament, that limited consciousness quiets the mind, quiets the ego, eliminates its mind created persona and experiences a length of time being again what it was before becoming a human consciousness.  Humans are mortal.  The consciousness in a human is immortal.

I AM ALL THAT TRULY IS

 I AM ALL THAT TRULY IS.   I am Consciousness, but right now I am limited by this body, mind, thoughts, emotions.  When I quiet my body’s mind, ego, thoughts and eliminate its mind created persona I can experience what I really am: Consciousness unlimited, unbound, infinite, all present, all knowing, all powerful living in through, roundabout all things, HOWEVER, currently, while in a human body, I get to experience  unique realities as Tom, Tammy, Troy, Travis, Toran, Tyler, Abbie, Christian and every person, place, and thing.

When this body that I am currently limited by, dies, if I have no mental, physical or emotional attachments, entanglements, identities, no needs, wants, desires that must be met or satisfied (if I have eliminated my brain/mind/ego created persona) I will again be Consciousness, unbound, unlimited, infinite.

When a limited consciousness in a human body appreciates all its experiences regardless of what they are, and when it view creation’s magnificence with appreciation for it’s astounding, awesome grandeur, and also realizes my contrast its “nothingness” as a personal consciousness, it will be as a drop of water returning from its journey and diving back into the ocean of the one consciousness from which it emerged, and which it always was.

Once you experience that you are all consciousness having a limited consciousness experience as a human, you enjoy all that is life.  You continue to live your life as a human consciousness while fully knowing it’s but a temporary adventure on Disneyland Death World.

All the experiences humans have (all races, ethnicities, societies, customs, religions, theologies, philosophies, businesses, careers, jobs, abilities, talents, hobbies, etc.) are adventures for the one consciousness.  The one consciousness becomes all consciousnessess for ITS joy, happiness, and pleasure.

As is written, “I God (Consciousness) create the dark and the light, the good and the evil and I do all these things for my pleasure.”

Life (consciousness) is not about humans.  It’s about THE ONE CONSCIOUSNESS (which doesn’t mean THE ONE doesn’t give consideration to humans and doesn’t care about human plight on Disneyland Death world).  But the bottom line is, the play of life is not about the actors (humans) as much as it is about the audience, which is THE ONE CONSCIOUSNESS.

So in your day to day interaction with humans,  all animals and vegetables (especially Cauliflower) consider being pleasant, kind, and empathetic.  Life is not easy for any of the avatars of CONSCIOUSNESS.

SAND CREATURES

 I had grown eight cycles of seasons when I asked the village elder what life is about.  I asked because I saw life is pain, joy, happiness, injury, suffering, sorrow, and death repeating through the seasons.

“We know not where we came from; we know not why we are here; we know not where we are going,” said the Elder, and then said, “Now go collect some wood.”

What are we?  We are sand creatures, made of beach sand, and when we die we return to the sand as ignorant about life as we arrived.

I am old now, an elder, 800 moons, ready to return to the sand. It has been an exiting adventure interrupted by boredom, and I know nothing about life, EXCEPT, how not to be miserable.  I have learned how to enjoy life,  all of it, every season, every sand creature, everything that happens.  And then near the end of my life I had some experiences that taught me things, and they were not about sand creatures.

I learned I am something more than my body, mind, emotions when I was aware I was not in my body.  One moment I was in my body and the next way above my body out among the stars.  When I became aware I was in space, I was suddenly back in my body.  It happened three time.

I told another elder of my experience and he said he had been out of his body and was every sand creature and all things made of sand and when he came back into his body he did not know what he was.  He thought he went crazy.  And another time he said he was out of his body and was aware of all sand creatures everywhere and all things made of sand.  After that the elder said he knew he was crazy, but dismissed his experiences because he didn’t know what to do about them, and they had no value in helping him haul wood or carry water.

Maybe we are not just sand creatures but more, but it doesn’t matter.  What matters, what has value is being able to enjoy life until you return to the sand or return to the stars as some other sand creature.

Sand is smart.  I look around the island and see what sand has built.  I look into the sky at the stars and moon, and at the sun, wind, water and sand, and I marvel at the sands intelligence.  We, sand creatures, can do none of those things, and those things are magnificent, beautiful, beyond our abilities, beyond our senses to fathom how they came to be.  

When I see a parrot or a monkey in a tree I am awe struck that such creatures exist, and no less the tree, and no less that my fellow sand creatures and I exist.  It seems to me that someone or something is having a good time creating life, and maybe, just maybe, it is like the other elder who was aware of all creation, and whatever life is, is also aware.  To me, that thought makes sense, but I know not, but beyond that, I am too busy just enjoying the life I know nothing about.

MY NAME IS NEMESIS - This is my story

Humans are meat sack maniacs, hamburgers with opinions, monkeys with wrenches.

I was human.  Went through the school.  Graduated.  Now I am back where I began.

It was a hell of a journey.

My name is Nemesis.

This is my story.
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I was in Disneyland.  Went to enjoy it.  Instead I wanted to know where did it come from.  Who built it?  When it was built?  Why was it built?  How was it built?  Where did I come from?  Why am I here?  Where am I going? I wanted details.  In the process I forgot to enjoy it.
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I watch my thoughts.  I watch my emotions.  I watch my body.  Because I can watch them, I am not them.  So what am I?  I am the watcher.
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What the hell is a Watcher?
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My body had health issues.  I was left without arms and legs.  Obviously I wasn’t my arms and legs.  Then I had heart and lung problems.  So they replaced them with mechanical parts.  So obviously I wasn’t them either.  Things got so bad that all that was left was my head.  They hooked it up to another machine.  It worked just fine.  I could see, hear, smell, taste, and if someone touched my head, I could feel it.  

One day the machine fell over and my head hit the floor.  They said I was unconscious, but I regained my consciousness.  I asked what the hell happened.  The janitor did it.

When I fall asleep I am not conscious.  When I wake up my brain starts up, starts thinking.  Each time I wake up I forget for a minute I have no body.  

Then my head started failing, so they put my brain in an electric jar with liquid.  I thought I’d drown, but forgot I didn’t have lungs.  I did lose consciousness during the transfer, but when I got conscious again, I could see, hear, smell, taste, and feel better than ever.  They put me in a robot.

Well obviously I wasn’t THE robot.  But I was IN a robot.

So then I had this experience.  I was focused on something, and suddenly my consciousness (whatever that is) was way above the robot.  When I noticed I was no longer in the robot, my consciousness immediately went back inside the robot.  What the hell?  

Obviously, I wasn’t my brain either.  What the hell am I?  What is this thing I call me?

Well, from all the evidence, considering my experiences, I am a consciousness.  What’s that?  I don’t know, but I am going to find out, and I did.

I again was focusing on something and my consciousness was in outer space, and this time I decided to travel.  I am not sure I traveled, or if my consciousness just expanded and it seemed like I traveled.  Anyway, I ran into another consciousness, and we communicated by thought, or more accurately by energy.  I don’t know what that means.  Energy is just a word, like the word consciousness, awareness, watcher, observer, thinker.  Just words, like the word brain, mind, emotions, body, robot.

Anyway, the consciousness I ran into said if I focused and imagined good enough, I could create a new body for myself, so I tried it, and sure enough, I was a fish, a trout.  

Then I imagined a bird, and I was that.    Anyway, whatever my consciousness had learned when in a human body, whatever images I had seen, and whatever experiences I had lived, I was able to recall them and recreate them as energy forms, and they were as real as physical, or as real as a vivid dream.  Real enough for me.

Here’s another weird thing, if I focused on being a bird, I wasn’t aware of anything but the bird, however, when I focused on nothing, I was nothing.  I didn’t exist.  Explain that one.

Anyway, to make a long story short, I forgot to enjoy Disneyland.  Next time I go, I’m going as Mickey Mouse.




 

TAO KNOWS ALL SEES ALL DOES ALL IS ALL

 Tao knows.  Past, present, future.

Brain turns energy into words.

Words are air fluctuation, vibration, resonance, oscillation, frequency, waves.

Wow, your language has beautiful air fluctuations.  Esameeamba.
Letters ,words, sentences, paragraphs, books are a collection of sounds.
What’s your name?  A.  Your name is A.  yes.  Spell it. A
Humans are meaning-generators communicating with other meaning generators.

Humans are energy organized into form assigning meaning to other energy organized forms.

Life is energy playing.  Life is energy organizing, unorganizing, morphing into this and that, one energy form consuming and expelling other energy forms.  Energy doesn’t die, doesn’t kill.  Kill and death means an energy form is no longer in that form.

All is energy morphing, transforming, organizing, unorganizing, reorganizing.  Life is energy dancing.  There is only energy dancing.  
What is war?  Energy-forms, inanimate, battling other energy-forms.
Weapons?  Energy-forms capable of quicker disassimilation of energy forms.
Humans are energy in form.
What is consciousness?  Energy aware.  What is self-aware mean?  An energy-form knows it is an energy form, sees other energy forms.  Senses what other energy forms are doing.

I, a conscious self-aware energy-form, am sitting on a energy-form that was given, by a modulating a rush of  air by a human-energy form, the vocalized name,  chair.  I am currently creating and inhaling an energy-form dubbed, smoke, which is being created by an energy form called cigarette.  I used an energy-form called fire to begin the process of slowly destroying the energy form called cigarette.  

Most opposite sexed human-energy forms can connect their energy forms and produce a bran new human energy-form.

The universe (everything therein that human energy-forms are capable of detecting) contains various energy-forms coming and going in and out of human awareness.

There are energy-forms that human energy-forms cannot sense.  They exist but human energy-forms cannot experience them while being a human energy-form.  

What is a human.  A human is a amount of energy captured and formed into an energy-form called human.  A human energy-form is limited, bound, and finite, whereas before that portion of energy was a dirt energy-form, and before it was captured and became a dirt-energy-form, it was energy without form, and energy not in form is unbound, unlimited and infinite.

How is that the Tao knows past, present, future?  How is it that the energy-sound that humans make, called Tao, knows what other energy forms have done, are doing, and will do?

As one human energy-form is more intelligent than another, and another more intelligent than it, the totality of all energy is more intelligent than them all because the totality of all energy, is them all, knows them all, knows their past, senses their present, knows their capacities, inclinations, needs, wants, desires, knows their circumstances, knows their thoughts, knows all other energy-form’s comings and goings and their intersects in time and space, knows what is on its way, knows when they will intersect and cross paths and crash and burn or not.  The sound, the word, Tao, represents the intelligence that is all energy, and it knows what all it’s energy-forms are doing because it is all its energy-forms.

The dance of energy, in and out of form, is this:   Energy, in the form of a human shoots energy in the form of a deer, thereby releasing that portion of captured energy (that humans call a deer) back to the energy form that humans call earth, until such a time when the energy that was captured, that humans call earth, is released and returns to energy unorganized.  Life is merely energy dancing.  Life is a fiction.  Life is a fiction  story.  The only thing not a fiction is energy unorganized.  Bon Appetite, deer slayer.

RESOLUTION OF CONFLICT IS THE PURPOSE OF A PLAY

 You are an actor in the play of life, and the play is NOT ABOUT YOU, is NOT FOR YOU, and has NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU.  The play is for an audience.  

No producer produces a play for the benefit of actors.  A producer produces a play for HIS benefit.  Thus it is written, “I ‘God’ created the dark and the light, the good and the evil for my pleasure,” for my benefit, for my happiness and joy.

Whatever definition you have for God, if it works for you, WELCOME TO THE PLAY.

Who or what is the audience, the viewers, the listeners, the observers, the watchers or the awarenessess that is enjoying the play, that is getting pleasure from experiencing the play?  IS THERE AN AUDIENCE, or is something else going on?

ALL I SEE ARE ACTORS taking the play seriously.  Drama is everywhere.  The producer is very happy, the audience is happy.  The play is a success.  

War, peace, love, hate, heros, villains, dark and light, good and evil, likes and dislikes, WOW!  AWESOME PLAY.

THE PURPOSE OF A PLAY IS RESOLUTION OF DRAMA, STRUGGLE AND CONFLICT AND A  RETURN TO EQUILIBRIUM–RESOLVE THE DRAMA.  WHEN THE CONFLICT IN THE PLAY IS RESOLVED THE PENDULUM STOPS SWINGING, AND THE PLAY IS OVER, AND IF THERE WERE WATCHERS, THEY WERE ENTERTAINED.

If the actors wake up and recall they are actors, and if the audience wakes up and recalls they are watching a movie, everyone goes home.

I am a stage actor in a play.  I signed a life-long contract.  If I ever quit playing my part, I have to stay in the play until I die.  If I don’t want to die before my contract is up, I have to at least carry wood and haul water, but I no longer have to play the character I signed up for.  

The MOST profound realization you will ever have is the day you realize you are an actor in the play of life, and that the play is NOT ABOUT YOU, is NOT FOR YOU, and has NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU.  

Who was the play written for?   For the watcher, observer, awareness consciousness

The good news is, the audience claps when an actor wakes up and realizes he's an actor and quits playing his part and enjoys the play as much as the audience.  The audience is very entertained to see how the awake actor interacts with the actors who are not awake.  

However, the audience is NOT entertained when all the actors wake up and quit playing their parts and walk off stage.  

THE PLAY IS NOT ABOUT HUMANS; IS NOT FOR HUMANS; HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH HUMANS.  The play was created for the audience.  And humans are NOT the audience.  Humans are actors.  A producer hires actors not for the benefit of the actors but for an audience.  

An actor who wakes up and remembers he is an actor in a dramatic play, does not experience dramatic energy.

Humans think life the play is about them, but it is not about them.  It’s about an audience.  

THE MOST PROFOUND REALIZATION YOU WILL EVER EVER EVER HAVE

I am a stage actor in a play.  I signed a life-long contract.  If I ever quit playing my part, I have to stay in the play until I die.  If I don’t want to die before my contract is up, I have to at least carry wood and haul water, but I no longer have to play the character I signed up for.  

The MOST profound realization you will ever have is the day you realize you are an actor in the play of life, and that the play is NOT ABOUT YOU, is NOT FOR YOU, and has NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU.  

The play was created for the audience.  And you are NOT the audience.  

The good news is, the audience claps when an actor wakes up and realizes he's an actor and quits playing his part and enjoys the play as much as the audience.  The audience is very entertained to see how the awake actor interacts with the actors who are not awake.  

However, the audience is NOT entertained when all the actors wake up and quit playing their parts and walk off stage.  

THE PLAY IS NOT ABOUT HUMANS; IS NOT FOR HUMANS; HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH HUMANS.  The play was created for the audience.  And humans are NOT the audience.  

WHO ARE YOU??

 WHO ARE YOU?

WHO ARE YOU IN THE BEGINNING?  You came into existence when a quantity of energy resulted in a separate individual intelligence (an awareness, a consciousness) that eventually became your weird mother-in-law.  YOU ARE ENERGY IN A TEMPORARY FORM CALLED HUMAN.  YOU ARE AN AVATAR FOR THE INTELLIGENCE THAT IS ENERGY AND LIFE-FORCE, THE ONE CONSCIOUSNESS.

WHO ARE YOU AT BIRTH?  From a human avatar’s perspective, you are a body, mind, emotions.  You don’t HAVE a body, mind, and emotions.  You ARE a body, mind, and emotions.  You (body, mind, emotions) are a mirror reproduction of the genetic memories of your ancestors.  The spooky ghosts of your ancestors are alive and living through you, and they are YOU at birth and later hide in your closet and under your bed  waiting for a chance to scare the “BOO!!!” out of you.

The crazy voices in your head are your ancestor’s ghosts telling you what they want you to do, or what they think of you, and what they like and don’t like, and to eat more anchovies, but hold the pizza.  Welcome to your NATURE.  

WHO ARE YOU NOW?  Your birth-nature (what you came with) had programs (software) added to it.  You (your mind) was trained, disciplined, conditioned, educated, programmed, indoctrinated, brainwashed, propagandized and totally Hollywooded for the benefit of power, wealth, and glory, boob jobs, face lifts and the least psycho psychiatrists you can get counseling from and tell all your friends how sane you become.  Welcome to your NURTURE.  

Today, you are the result of nature, nurture, experiences and memories which makes you just neurotic enough to give a shit what people think.

SCIENCE DOES NOT KNOW.  Science does not know if there was a who done it, how it done it, when it done it, or why it done it, whereas east and west philosophers and theologians, guess, theorize, speculate, pontificate, make up stories, believe or have faith, after which they go to war to control the narrative.

TWO WAY TO ENJOY YOUR LIFE.   Way One: Don’t listen and don’t engage the voices–the thoughts–of your ancestral ghosts, and don’t listen and don’t engage the voices–the thoughts– of your programming (all your experiences and memories that haunt you).  In other words stay out of your mind, ignore your mind (use only the analytical part of your mind that knows how to boil water).  In other words, use your mind as tool, but don’t be its fool.  

Way Two: Talk with your ancestral ghosts, and talk with the voices of your programmed mind and its experiences and memories and enjoy a riotous ride on the wild side of chills and thrills and die screaming,  but remember to be thrilled to have had experiences and emotions that stressed you until you exploded.

WHAT’S THE BOTTOM LINE.  That’s kind of confusing.  Eastern thought is don’t come back for another life.  Extinguish yourself and never shine again.  Western religious thought is, live forever.  Become immortal and feed all the dogs and cats you ever owned throughout all eternity because nothing ever dies.

WHAT’S THE REAL BOTTOM LINE.  You get home from your jungle safari on earth, from your theme park rides, from your pain and pleasure adventure on Death World, and your family asks, “Did you  have a good time?  Did you enjoy it?  Tell us all about it, because I sure as hell ain’t doin’ it myself.  I’m too comfortable, but I don’t mind hearing about it, or reading the book, or watching the movie.  And if you didn’t enjoy it, and didn’t have a good time, remember, I WARNED YOU.”  

WHAT’S THE REAL REAL BOTTOM LINE: Life does life for its entertainment, for its joy and pleasure, just like all of us avatar’s-of-life do our lives for our entertainment, joy and pleasure.  And if you are not having fun, if you are not enjoying all that is life, obviously your avatar-mind is still nuts from all your genetic ghosts of Christmas past yelling at you, and all the programming and propaganda your mind spouts like gospel, so it’s not your time to wake up, but the good news is, you were free entertainment for the other avatars, and though the avatar mind’s that are awake have empathy for your plight, they can’t help but enjoy it, but they don’t tell anyone unless they want to die screaming, which is the coolest of all death options on Death World. 

BE KIND TO YOUR AVATAR–it’s nuts

 BE KIND TO YOUR AVATAR–it’s nuts

YOU will enjoy YOUR avatar’s experiences, adventures, enjoy it’s mental, emotional, physical needs, wants, desires, attachments, entanglements, identity, persona, personality, habits, traits, propensities, indulgences, wackiness, enjoy it’s chasing, and enjoy it having a way life must go, enjoy it’s duplicity, its worries, stress and fears, and enjoy everything it experiences as soon as YOU experience that YOU are not YOUR avatar.

As soon as YOU realize YOU are cosmic consciousness WITH a human avatar, YOU can either train YOUR avatar to view life the way YOU do (and then YOU and YOUR avatar will both be joyous no matter what happens) or, if YOU haven’t trained YOUR avatar, then YOU can just enjoy your avatar’s wackiness, while being empathetic to its plight as a human because YOU haven’t trained YOUR avatar.

JUST DO THIS TO BE HAPPY ALL THE TIME, OR AT LEAST, AT PEACE.

BE YOUR
OWN GURU

NO MEDITATION - NO YOGA - NO PRACTICE
JUST DO ONE THING

What is the primary purpose of practicing Yoga, Zen, and all other eastern techniques?  ANSWER:  How not to suffer life,  but enjoy life.  However, there’s an easier way than practicing Yoga, meditation, and all the other techniques.  Simply receive all things with thankfulness (ALL THINGS THAT HAPPEN TO YOU) and you will at a minimum enjoy the peace that passes all understanding, and at a “maximum” be blissed out the rest of your life.  That’s my experience at 76.  THE END.

ALL the things you don’t have to do to enjoy all that is life.

When you receive all things with thankfulness you will experience the peace that passes all understanding, and enjoy ALL that is life.

You will enjoy your mind, its thoughts, your personality, nothing will bother you.  You will never suffer again.  You will enjoy your needs, wants, desires.  You can be attached, entangled and identified mentally, emotionally, physically with people, places, and things.   YOU CAN ENJOY ALL THAT IS LIFE.  I’ve lived that way for 76 years.  Thankfulness is a mind-set, an attitude, a perspective that changes your life.  It works for me.  Just say to yourself, “Thank you that I am having experiences.” THAT’S ALL FOLKS.

YOUR MIND IS A TOOL
DON’T BE ITS FOOL

YOU TOO CAN ENJOY
ALL THAT IS LIFE,
IF YOU’VE A MIND TO

I HAD A TALK
WITH MY MIND
AND IT FREAKED OUT

You do not have to learn yoga, meditation, Buddhism, a philosophy, theory, theology, join a religion,  or have beliefs to be happy, to enjoy ALL that is life.  All you have to do is realize that your MIND is a tool, and STOP being its fool.

It was a life changing realization when I experienced that I HAVE a mind, but I am NOT my mind.  My mind is mine, but I am not my mind.

After experiencing I was not my mind, everything changed.  I changed my mind, which changed everything.  I became the boss of my mind.  I retrained it.  I talked to it.  It became MY servant.  I was NO LONGER ITS SERVANT, its flunky, its goffer, its stooge, its slave.  I was finally free of the little shit, the lying-dictator-foolis-usurper of happiness, destroyer of peace, killer of joy, squasher of bliss, constipater of ecstasy. I finally stopped my mind’s monster case of diarrhea thinking.

(It doesn’t matter what theory you believe, or the words you use that try to define what you REALLY are.  What matters is that you are aware that you are aware you are thinking or not thinking.  You are aware when your mental cup is full of hot chocolate, and you are aware when the cup is empty.  As long as your cup is full of thinking, it is impossible, or at the least, difficult, to be open to experiences beyond and outside your mind.  You can’t hear, you can’t tune into the  cosmic voice of life if your cup/mind is full of thoughts–or chocolate :).  However, when you’re ready, there are wonderful experiences available that exist beyond your PERSONAL limited-mind, finite-thoughts and bound-consciousness, and they await your liberation from the CRAZY (PERSONAL) part of your mind, the part that says, “Be afraid.  Be very afraid, LOSER.”

WHAT’S THE ONE PURPOSE OF LIFE?  The purpose of life is to enjoy it.  At the end of your life will you be able to say, “I enjoyed all that is life,” or will you say, “I suffered life, and only enjoyed it when it went my mind’s way.”

When a kid asks, “Where did I come from; why am I here; what am I, and where am I going? Do the kid a favor.  Tell it, “It doesn’t matter.  What matters is knowing how to enjoy all that is life.  THAT’S what every kid (and everyone else) wants to know.  And that’s what this small book is about–HOW TO ENJOY ALL THAT IS LIFE.


 

I AM MIND

  I AM MIND.  I write stories.  A character in one of my stories is named Tom.  Tom wanted to know what it was, where he came from, where he was going, and why he got created.  I told Tom I created him in my MIND.  Tom wanted to know if he was real.  I told him that he is as real as I imagine him to be, and that I created him for my pleasure.

I AM MIND.   When I write a story, it’s not just on paper, it’s not just a play, movie, not even a hologram, not even computer generated.  My stories are physical, made of energy, atoms, very vivid, very real.

I AM MIND.   My characters actually exist.  Some of my characters appear in many episodes, some not so many.

Hi.  I am Tom, a temporary character created by MIND.  I don’t know how long MIND will keep me as a character.  It doesn’t matter, because though I actually exist, I am just a character created by MIND.

I had a conversation with the AUTHOR.  Kind of cool that the author was willing to talk with one of its characters.  I asked Author where it came from, how it came to be.  Author said it didn’t know.  It had always been, and it too wanted to know where it came from, and it even suspects it may be a character of MIND.

What’s the take away.  I am a character created by a mind called Author.  I play the part Author created for me.  I don’t know how long Author will keep me around, maybe a few more episodes, or not.  It doesn’t matter, because now I know I am just a temporary character created in the mind of Author, for his pleasure.  That’s cool.  I’m good with that.  What’s really cool is Author can morph its characters for whatever stories it has in mind.  

It is the nature of the universe to spontaneously create minds, and then minds create stories.  And that’s the way things are.

I woke up when I was two years old and realized I was back–again–in a new body.

 I woke up when I was two years old and realized I was back–again–in a new body.  When I wanted to I could recall my most recent past life, like when I was eighty-seven and living in a shack in the wilderness, and a life further back when I was a black man living in an African village.  

This time, even at age two, I was able to analyze my disposition, attitude, and abilities that I inherited from my previous life.  As I got older, more abilities revealed themselves, and the forest culture revealed more.  It’s easy for me to understand my own inheritance by realizing that I knows things, how certain things work, though I  don’t know why I know except that I learned those things in a previous life.

What I don’t know is why the wonder of life exists, why this planet is life and death, growth and destruction, and why humans wage war and genocide, torture and murder and destroy their environment, maybe even the planet.  

I think I  know why there is scarcity, why work is required to survive, why planet earth does not spontaneously provide what is needed to survive.  It would be boring.  Nothing to do but eat from the chocolate bonbon trees, or pluck Twinkies out of the garden.

So life is adventure, challenge, risk, and wild ride on the life and death side of reality.  Life does things, nature does things, and human nature does things, and that’s life, and you can either enjoy it all, or cry about it.  You work what is workable to survive, and that which you are powerless to change your don’t give flying hoot or care.

Needing, wanting, desiring life to be different than it is, is a ridiculous undertaking that only helps the psychologist, psychiatrists, drug companies and undertakers.

I wonder if life, the energy and intelligence that is life, and the atoms that are every person, place, thing, enjoys itself, or is oblivious.  I know my intent as a human is to be happy, at peace, joyful, even ecstatic just being alive having adventure experiences, or just sitting without a thought in my mind.

Mostly, humans forget what they were before they are again.  It’s a deep forgetting.  Why?  Perhaps it would make their current lives less interesting, like when I was a billionaire, when I was famous, powerful, and now I live alone in a deep dark forest with the animals.  If I spend too much time reflecting on what I had, it most certainly would impact my current life.  It’s like knowing you actually live in a million dollar penthouse and you go on vacation by going on a jungle safari with all its dangers, and when the going gets tough and even the cannibals think you’re tough, you regret ever having left the penthouse.

Anyway, the one source of life, the all powerful, all knowing, all present life force that is life (which is what every person, place, and thing really are) accumulates all its many form’s adventures, experiences, knowledge, and understanding, while yet manifesting as trillions and trillions of forms for its pleasure.  

So actually people, places, things only exist as energy-forms temporarily for the pleasure of source.  If it wasn’t for human self-aware minds, we couldn’t even think we are something other than source.

Source is unbound, unlimited, infinite.  People, places, things are source bound, limited, finite, until source leaves forms.

Source is revealed in the stillness of silence, between thoughts, when asleep, meditating.
When you have no thoughts, there is source and no you.  When you think, that is you, an avatar of source, and there are two, you and source.  If you want to experience source, stop thinking.  If you really want to experience source in a grander way, be less you.  And if you want to experience source fully (even while in the form of an avatar) focus on no thing long enough and you, your persona, the person you think you are, the awareness you think you are, temporarily disappears and you are source only, singularly, until you become aware again.  

The cup is source.  Empty the cup and there is only source.  You can’t fill a full cup, and you can’t know the cup when thinking you are the hot chocolate.

What are you?  You don’t exist, except in the mind of a human avatar.    

What does awake mean?  It means a human avatar mind realizes it is a temporary avatar for source.  It is as when an actor in a play wakes up while acting, and realizes it is only a temporary character in a play.   Awake is a movie character taking a coffee break between takes.  Awake is a stage character who quits in the middle of a scene and yells, “I quit!  I’m not a bad guy in real life.  I’m going home.”

After an actor, a character, a human avatar mind awakens to its situation in a play, it enjoys the play.


 

WHAT ARE YOU?

 

I AM AN ATOM TALKING TO HUMANS

I have trillions and trillions of friends.  We are family.  We are all actors.  We are intelligent.  We can act, and be acted upon.  We organize into forms to play and have fun.  When a play is over, we go backstage and have a drink and talk about our next play, our next performance, our next adventure.

When we are not in a play, we know everything, but when in a play, we only know enough to play our parts.  

Not one of us better than another.  We are all equal in intelligence, the same, and when all together we are all the intelligence in the universe–more accurately we are all the intelligence in the place we call space where all that happens, happens.  Space is our medium, keeps us connected so we don’t wander too far.  

When we play a person, place, or thing, we forget what we are, what we have always been, which energy in the form of atoms.

When a human experiences that it is a bunch of atoms playing a human form, and experiences that even the chair it is sitting on is a few of its family being a chair, and that when a fly lands on his nose, that human is fully conscious and aware that’s just a few of his friends doing their united performance as a fly to bug the shit out of other family members.  When family members in the form of a fly bugs a group of atoms in the form of a human, that human might kill that form and return it to earth, or soil, and of course, earth or soil is made of atoms.  We are everywhere. You can run, but you can’t hide.

For now, some of my friends and me, are a human named Tom.  As a human, as atoms in the form of a human, and being separated somewhat from all our other friends, Tom doesn’t know much.  Tom is a separate consciousness, an individual awareness, an actor.

You reading this might ask, “How can a bunch of atoms play a human, and one of those atoms be writing this as if the writer was just one atom?”  My answer is, it’s a realization, a coordination of energy, and once experienced, that coordinated energy allows a singular atom, even when part of an energy-form (in this case, called a human, named Tom) to express it self through Tom.  There are no words to define it more clearly.  Anyway, here I am, one atom, writing through the vehicle which I am part of, named Tom.

As previously stated, every person, place, thing is composed of atoms, and we are friends, are individually equal in intelligence, but when a few of us get together, our combined intelligence (the ability to compute information) is increased.

As atoms, obviously we are full of ourselves, meaning energy.  Energy is vibrant, moves, is ecstatic, blissful, euphoric.  Those words try to explain our nature, which is seen by humans as light, and interpreted by their minds as images, forms, people, places, things.

Atoms seek to experience more than being their individual selves.  You could call it nature, or the results of the laws of nature, how things work.

In order to have greater and great and more far out adventures, some of us became animals, and then for even more excitement, more thrills and chills, some of us became animals with self-aware minds, which brings me back to humans.

When a human awakens to what it is (a bunch of atoms) that realization makes it friendly and loving to all the forms its trillions and trillions of friends are playing.  An awake human walks around saying hi to rocks, trees, bugs, soil, air, water, sun, snakes, and to other humans who are not busy trying to kill it.  AND, all forms humans call inanimate (not alive) are actually alive, or animate.  They’re made of my friends.   I mean, what the hell do you think they’re made of, dead atoms.  There ain’t no such thing.  They wouldn’t be called atoms if they were dead.  Atoms are intelligent and alive in every form they organize into.

Eventually all humans wonder where they came from, why their here, and where they’re going, and what the hell is going on.  The answers are, they came from atoms, are here to have experiences (that we call adventures) and will eventually return home and be with all their trillions and trillions of atomic friends.  In the meantime, we are having a hoot experiencing it all through the energy-forms we assume temporarily.

An awake human sees all the forms it encounters, but it also sees its friends (atoms) playing that form.  In other words, it sees itself, or groups of its family of atoms playing forms.   Eventually all it see is atoms having fun in form.  An awake human is a bunch of atoms that no longer see themselves separate from their family of atoms, whereas an asleep human still lives in the fantasy realm created by its self-aware mind.

Asleep humans live much of their lives in their self-aware minds wondering what the hell is going on.  Self-aware minds (from an atom’s perspective) are the greatest of our inventions, which makes life nothing less than a thrilling, chilling murder mystery.  And just so you know (the human reading this) we do all things for our pleasure (even as humans try to do all things for their pleasure, joy, peace, and happiness and thrilling terrifying adventures).   

When a bunch of atoms acting as a human (and that human is awake) gets in a car, it’s with its family acting as a car.  When an asleep human gets into a car it thinks it’s just in a car.  Perspective is everything.

You can’t kill a family member, but if the form they are in gets too obnoxious, you can send the atoms home.  Every atom understands that, though humans seldom do.

ON THE WAY TO ENLIGHTENMENT

 On the way to “enlightenment,” if you will receive all things with thankfulness, you will enjoy the peace that passes all understanding, regardless of the way you
were, are, will be;
regardless of the experiences you had, are having, or will have;
whether in ego or out of ego;
whether you do or don’t have a way life must go;
do or don’t do what is in front of you;
do or don’t have  needs, wants, desires;
do or don’t chase needs, wants, desires;
do or don’t do your best for the joy of doing your best,
do or don’t have preferences, opinions, biases, prejudices;
do or don’t have a philosophy, theory, theology, belief, conclusions;
are or aren’t liberated;
think you are or aren’t your body, mind, emotions;
do or don’t experience energy shifts when things happen;
do or don’t get irritated, upset, angry;
get or don’t get depressed, anxious, stressed, afraid;
care or don’t care if you live or die;
care or don’t care what people think or say about you;
accept or don’t accept what you cannot influence or change;
stop or don’t stop trying to control others.

Wether you have or have not been, are, or will be trained, conditioned, programmed, indoctrinated, brainwashed, propagandized, and wether you think you are or are not bound, limited, finite, attached, entangled, identified, physically, mentally, emotionally to needs, wants, desires, people, places, things, if you will receive all things with thankfulness, every experience you have, you will, at a minimum walk through life in the peace that passes all understanding even when pissed off.

ENLIGHTENMENT:
1.  I was on the way to the annual Bikini & Boots outdoor wilderness festival with my “Best Wild Pizza Ever” catering truck and trailer.  I had spent my last money ($5,000 dollars) on ingredients, and was absolutely prepped to serve over 10,000 individual pizzas, when a boulder rolled down the mountain and crashed into my pickup and trailer and pushed me off a small cliff.  I awoke in an ambulance with a slight injury.  What was my first thought?  “Thank you for this experience.”

2.  I was on the way to meet my fiancee, the love of my life.  We were traveling in separate carts to the airport to catch a flight to Hawaii for the wedding.  Our families had already arrived in Hawaii.  I was quite a distance behind her and when I came around the mountains edge, I saw car from the opposite direction crossed the no passing lane and crashed into her head-on, killing her instantly.  What was my first thought?  “Fuck the universe.”  My second thought was, “Thank you for this experience, and for me feeling and saying, ‘Fuck the universe.’”

I am awed that I have been graced and blessed to receive all things with thankfulness.
  

FREE-FLOWING ENERGY AND ENERGY BLOCKS

FREE-FLOWING ENERGY AND ENERGY BLOCKS

There is only universal energy, all the energy in the universe (all the atoms are free-flowing in space, free-flowing in the universe.  There are no energy forms.

When atoms connect a form is the result.  That form is a small portion of the total energy in the universe.  That portion is now a separate energy-form, and its total energy is the number of atoms the form is made of.

A human is an energy form with a certain number of atoms, which constitute all the energy available to it.  

There are certain things that humans do that block the free-flow of energy that has been captured in order to be a human.  

When a human creates no blocks, it is, and feels, all the energy it is composed of.

What blocks energy-flow?  Thoughts.
What does not block energy-flow?  Silence.
Why do thoughts block energy-flow?  Focus.
A thought is free-flowing energy that is focused on the object of a thought.  It is as a funnel.  A funnel only allows so many atoms through at a time.  Remove the funnel (thought) and you are again all the energy your human form contains.
No thoughts, no persona, no personal you, no human form, and experience being all the energy in the universe, which is the real you.

When the temporary you (human) mind focuses on its humanness, on its body, mind, thoughts, emotions, you create temporary blocks, funnels, filters, and cannot experience being all the free-flowing energy in the universe.

If you want to experience all the free-flowing energy in the universe, STOP THINKING.

WHY IS ENERGY-FLOW SO FRIGGIN’ IMPORTANT?  IS IT FRIGGIN’ IMPORTANT?
Energy is life, so kind of important.

What turns energy negative?  Is there negative energy?

Energy is never negative.   Nothing can turn energy negative.  Human negative thinking views energy as negative.  

Positive thinking doesn’t turn energy positive, and negative thinking doesn’t turn energy negative.  Thinking focuses energy.  Thoughts, words filter energy like the leaves on a tree filter sunlight.

If you don’t want to experience energy as it is NOT, don’t be what you are NOT, which is human, and thinking.  STOP thinking and you are unfiltered energy.

NEMESIS WAS INTERVIEWED BY A ZEN MASTER NAMED ZEN

NEMESIS WAS INTERVIEWED BY A ZEN MASTER NAMED ZEN

“Tell me about yourself,” said Zen.
“You first,” said Nemesis.
“That’s not very respectful,” said Zen.
“Is that a problem for you?”  asked Nemesis.
Zen smiled, and laughed.  “Who is testing who?” asked Zen.
“I am testing you,” said Nemesis, “to see if you are a Zen master, or a phony.”
“How am I doing so far?”  asked Zen.
“I’m not sure,” said Nemesis, “are you suffering?”
Zen asked, “What is the purpose of Zen?  What should a Zen master be like?”
“Zen is the end of suffering, the absolute and complete abolishment of suffering,” said Nemesis.
“I am suffering you right now,” said Zen.
“Then you are not a Zen Master.”  Said Nemesis.
“Does that mean you don’t like me?”  asked Zen.
“Nemesis smiled and said, “Aaah, a test.  You’ll have to do better than that.”
“What do you mean?” asked Zen, chuckling.
“Did you like me when you called me disrespectful?”  asked Nemesis.
“Aaah, a test,” said Zen.
And then they both laughed until tears ran down their faces.  END

Zen Buddhism teaches how to master yourself and end all suffering.  It has nothing to do with being a master of others, or calling oneself a Zen master.
If you have mastered yourself (your avatar's ego mind) all suffering ends, and is replaced with gratitude that you are alive having experiences, which means, you receive all things with thankfulness, which means you enjoy ALL that is life.  END.

NATURE OF NATURE-Your Self-Aware Mind-PLUS ZEN-A-PHOBIA-ALL AT NO EXTRA COST

NATURE OF NATURE
Your Self-Aware Mind
ZEN-A-PHOBIA

If you’re a kid or of college age reading this, you’ll have a better grasp of life’s reality than your parents did at your age, and most certainly a more intelligent understanding than  Google or your future mother-in-law.

Nature  may have not want to kill you, but there is no doubt that nature will kill you, which is why being paranoid is only a psychiatric condition for money).   Nature is how life works, the laws of nature, all working without intent, will, remorse, or a “How yeah doing?”
Self-aware minds want to know what the hell is life all about.  They want to know why they are here, where they came from, and where they are going, which is why there are over a thousand different ice cream flavored theologies trying to explain it ( fear not, your explanation is the one and only true theology).  The questions of  why, where and where presupposes that there are answers.  And there well may be answers, but apparently nature thinks (if it thinks) it’s none of your damn business, so believe whatever flavor tickles your palate.

Zen (which can be a phobia, thus Zen-a-phobia) is an anxiety disorder defined by an irrational, illogical and unrealistic lack of anxiety resulting in living in a cave blissed out or being super involved in life while extremely happy and joyful that nature is a murderer.

Nature, Mind, Zen–choose your poison or antidote because historically nature doesn’t care if you jump and cleared the cactus or got impaled as long as you enjoyed it, or freaked out.

There is a small chance in emergency-room-hell that nature cares whether you break the laws of nature and get injured, disabled, diseased, old and wobbly or die suddenly, however, there’s no evidence that nature actually gives a damn about you, or that nature cares, but there is an overflowing morgue of evidence that it doesn’t give a shit what you do, or why you did it, thus every human gets to experience the consequences of its ignorance, and if that’s not enough to drive your self-aware mind nuts, there’s this:

Death fuels life.  Earth is a killer world.  Nature will eventually achieve its goal and kill you.  You can’t eat if you don’t kill something.  If your diet (it’s called die-it because you have to cause someone or something to die before you can eat it) includes fruits and vegetable you can get someone–if you have money–to rip and tear them out of the ground for you so you can skin, dice, slice and broil, boil or saute them alive.  If you eat dead animals bodies, you can get meat packing plant to kill them for you for money.  Human butchers will pluck the gizzards out of murdered chickens, hot dogs and Twinkies and you can buy their corpses at a grocery store.  Yes, the living kill the living and eat them, and from the rotting leftovers grows new life. Mother-earth kills her babies.  It’s Mother nature’s loving way. She will reclaim you.  You have an expiration date.  She will repossess your butt.  However, mommy will first try to kill you with her scary weapons.  Maybe your murder will be by hurricane, tornado, wildfire, flood, quicksand, earthquake, or a government hit man.  On a more boring note, she may drive you nuts so you do the hit job yourself, or she will use her ravenous tear-you-apart-and-spit-you-out animal kingdom, or she’ll bug you to death one tiny bite at a time, or she will eat you alive with her micro-organisms that love to feed at the human-body buffet until you’re bone naked.  Mommy-nature is a genocidal mass-serial-killer and genocide fanatic, and she eats her babies.  Life is a buffet and you are the main course and your children are dessert.  Life is a picnic and nature loves picnics as long as you’re the meal.  Welcome to the park.  You enter crying, leave screaming, and end up manure which is why flowers grow out of decomposing eye sockets wherever the bodies drop dead or explode.   And finally, nature doesn’t care if humans torture, murder, rob, go to war and kill millions, and commit ecocide and genocide, for in nature’s own splendid way, it does all of those.  Welcome to your warm and fuzzy mother-earth’s nature. 

The reasons humans seek an explanation for nature is just in case nature’s nature is willfully diabolical, or just in case (with no chance in hell whatsoever) nature is merely a mindless nefarious metaphysical fluke that ends when the universe commits suicide with its thoughtless indifference, which, of course, is why spiritual after-life fairy tales sell like Snicker bars, Mountain Dew, Coke and beer at every convenience store, and why Zen–with its bliss while you burn philosophy–is getting more popular in the west than edible vegan yoga mats. (116).

Now that we’ve somewhat covered nature, and touched briefly on self-aware minds and Zen, we’re moving on to what nature–life–is really like.  And since humans are a product of nature doing its helter-skelter dance while many humans are whistling Dixie (to talk or act idly, to boast without basis, or to engage in unrealistic fantasies) while mindfully ignoring reality, we’ll cover human reactions to life’s gyrations.