PERSONAS

 Old man, flat tire, I  helped.  Why?  Family stranded.  Needed battery.  Gave battery.  Why?  Nowhere to sleep.  Gave place to sleep.  Why?  Hungary, fed.  Why?  No money.  Gave money.  Why?

Connected.  All one.  One energy, many faces.  Cats, dogs, birds, ants, squirrels, humans.  One energy, many forms.  One energy, many personas.

Mark, depressed, old, what he used to do, can’t do.  Energy wasn’t depressed, persona depressed.  Mark thinks he’s Mark.  I know Mark is energy being Mark.  I am helping Mark’s Persona.  Why?  Energy is OK.  Mark not OK.  Why help a persona?  Why deal with personas?

Young child crying.  Child persona, not OK.  Child thinks not at all.  Just didn’t get candy.  Child is energy being child.  Energy OK.  Child not.  Why care about child.  Child is just energy being a persona.  Wife upset.  Didn’t get her way.  Freaking out.  Wife is energy being wife.  Energy OK, wife going crazy.  Why help?

Room full of people upset village destroyed.  No food, no shelter, no water, all will die.  All the people are energy being people.  Energy OK.  People not.  Personas not OK. Why help?

I feel their concern.  Experience their feelings.  Listen to their lamentations.  They are not my concerns, not my feelings, not my lamentations.  They are suffering their personas.  I leave to reflect.  As long as they think they are their personas, are not energy playing a persona, they suffer.  No persona, no suffering.  What to do?

Not proper time to teach.  “Hey guys, you are energy being people.  Energy is not suffering, your persona is suffering.  Get over yourselves, get over your persona.  Energy is OK, is fine.  Quit your bitching”  ( probably not a good time to teach).  What to do?  Why do anything?  Can’t help the ignorant.  

If I give candy to the child crying, I can stop its crying, but I reinforce his persona, make it stronger.  Child has no  concept of what it is, and isn’t.  Whereas the adults in the room crying, have the ability to learn concept, but are too busy crying to teach.  What to do?  Give candy to child to shut it up.  Give shelter, safety, food, water, personas now OK, feeling better.  What’s the point?  Why do it?

Energy being a persona.  Persona tries to kill me.  I kill persona.  Energy is OK.  Persona not so much.  What’s the point?  What’s the point of energy playing personas that cry when things don't go persona's way?  Why is life playing personas?  

Energy is being an army of personas fighting another army of personas, just ants fighting ants, just human personas fighting other human personas.  Why is life doing that?  A male persona rapes a female persona.  Energy is OK.  Persona outraged, kills other  persona.  Why does energy do that?  It’s a fact that energy does all things.  Is there a why?  Or is there just an is?  Is it just that’s what energy does?  Is energy mindless?  Does energy not have a clue about what it is doing?

Once a persona is no longer merely energy in the form of a persona, does energy judge the form for killing another form?  “Hey dude, when you were me, being a dude, you did awful things.  I’m sending you to hell.”

I gotta ask, “What the hell is going on?”  

Finally energy talked to me.  It said, “Look, I don’t know what the hell is going on either.  All this energy I am is fine, and then without me doing anything, some of me spontaneously, forms itself into intelligences, becomes conscious, then divides itself into smaller consciousnesses, then into ants, cats, dogs, humans, and suddenly all hell breaks lose.  I didn’t do it.  I’m being used.  And now I’m the scapegoat.  All I know is that if I didn’t exist, nothing would exist, and sometimes I think that would be better.  I am definitely not in charge once parts of me become human.  I think humans are nuts.”