PERSONAL EXPERIENCE WITH A QUESTION

 MY PERSONAL AGAIN AND AGAIN EXPERIENCE:  I am in a space without a physical or spiritual human body, and I have no need, want, or desire to exercise my will to feel pleasure or pain, joy or sorrow, or do anything.  I am OK just being.  I have no physical need, no mental want, and no emotional desire for experiences.  I am not attached to, nor entangled with, nor identify as, people, places, things.  I have the capacity to will, but have no need, want or desire to exercise it.

QUESTION: Since an individual units of consciousness is OK just being (just being conscious of nothing, doing nothing, experiencing “nothing” but its own awareness) what causes a consciousness to do things, OR, is there another force that prompts a consciousness to do things, OR, is there a force that acts UPON a consciousness causing it to do things?  IF SO, what is that FORCE?  What sparks consciousness to take on an energy-form-body?

IN OTHER WORDS, with a body I need, want and desire.  Without a body, I do not need, want, desire.  Without a body I am still conscious and aware, just not motivated.  What’s going on?

Energy is fundamental, as is its ability or innate intelligence to act, and react spontaneously to information (like two magnets in proximity repel or attract).  

A individual unit of consciousness is an energy-form.  A energy form feeds on energy.  It feeds off information, which is energy.  If it declines to feed, it eventually disorganizes.  The form dies.  Just as a human energy form can exercise its will to not eat and starve to death, so can an individual-unit-of-consciousness-form.  Physicality, thoughts, thinking, evaluating, pondering, calculating, analyzing, computing, conjecture, contrasting, comparing, hunches, impressions, intuition, day dreams, night dreams, lucid dreams, imagination, being aware, conscious, observing takes energy, uses up energy,  IS eating energy.  That which moves, keeps moving.  That which stops moving, stops moving.

If you go to zero point and stay there long enough, you will no longer exist as an individual unit of consciousness.  Life energy is about action and reaction.  Death is about inaction.

WORDS ARE METAPHORS FOR WHAT IS GOING ON.  WORDS ARE SIMILES FOR REALITY, THEY EXPLAIN WHAT AN ENCHILADA IS, BUT ARE NOT THE ENCHILADA.

IF YOU CAN ENJOY YOUR MIND WHEN IT’S NOT OK, YOU ARE OK.  THE QUEST IS TO ENJOY a OK or not OK mind.  The quest is to be conscious.  You are OK, once you are conscious, if you enjoy your mind being OK, or not.  EXAMPLE:  A person is selfish, inconsiderate, you get mad, go do stupid things, get stuck, have to get unstuck, need help, do more weird and stupid things, the only question is, did you enjoy doing stupid things?  Don’t limit your joy to having an OK mind.  Have joy even when your mind is not OK.  Life is about having EXPERIENCES.  ENJOY THEM ALL.  AND IF YOU ARE TRULY CONSCIOUS, YOU DO ENJOY THEM ALL, THE PAIN AND THE PLEASURE, THE JOY AND THE SORROW.

BEING RIGHT OR WRONG IS NOT THE QUEST.  THE QUEST IS THE QUEST.

FROM THE NUT BOOK:
166.  If you are ill, sick, diseased, disabled or dead; if you are in danger; if your spouse leaves you or cheats on you; if you lose your job, career or business; if you came in last in the spitting contest; if you are homeless, hungry, destitute, enslaved or without cell service; if you are unappreciated, unloved, have no one to love, are alone and lonely, get no respect, are hated; if your life is empty of challenging and stimulating experiences; if you have not accomplished anything; if you are robbed, burglarized, in an accident or your toilet backs up and soaks your butt or you’ve been attacked and are bleeding to death and don’t know where your pet monkey is, for sanity sake, can’t you at least enjoy it?  IF YOU CAN’T ENJOY DYING, YOU WON’T FULLY ENJOY LIVING.

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Are you what you observe, or are you the observer?
Are you the tea pot, or the one who sees a tea pot?
Are you your body, mind, and emotions, or are you the one that is aware of them?
Are you your thoughts, or are you the observer of your thoughts?

Who is it that wants dinner?
Who is it that wants recognition?
Who is it that wants excitement?

Without a body, with the body’s mind, without the body’s emotions, what remains?
What is left is consciousness and your memories stored in consciousness.

When you, consciousness, leave your body behind, you’ll notice you have no needs, no wants, no desires.  You don’t need dinner, don’t want recognition, don’t desire excitement.

What does that say about you as a consciousness?

If consciousness has no needs, wants, desires, why does consciousness take on a body?  Is consciousness exploring its potential?  Does it need, want, desire to explore its potential?  

I don’t know how or why it happened, but I realized I was conscious.  I became aware that I had a body, mind, emotions, needs, wants, desires.  I was three years old, and there was lots of things going on that I was conscious of, and I also realized I had not given a thought to what had been going on for the last three years.  You could say I woke up when I was three years old and I had a lot of questions about what the hell is going on.

Sometime way later, I left my body and was just conscious somewhere out in outer space and I had no needs, wants, desires.  I had memories, could conjure up things, visualize things, imagine things, but had no desire to do so.  Everything I imagined was old hat, familiar, and just reorganizing them  to look new, but not really new, was boring.  So I just stayed where I was, wherever the hell that was, and just existed without a thought and with no compulsion to think or do anything.  NOW WHAT?

Maybe the words, need, want, desire are not accurate.  Thus, saying that I had no needs, wants, desires being just a consciousness is not accurate.  After awhile of not existing, not being aware of anything (similar to deep sleep) I came out of that, and was again aware of nothing, however, I kind of felt weird being conscious and not doing anything.  I began to wonder about the very nature of consciousness.  What the hell is it?  What is consciousness?  Obviously it’s just a word.  

Consciousness as a state of being, as energy itself doing its polarity nature, evolving into forms, more and more complex until it creates other forms, self-aware minds, localized consciousnessess, like me chilling in space.  Regardless of the science, or lack of it, meaning, words of explanation, I continued to sit in space, mindlessly pursuing nothing, falling in and out of consciousness, one minute aware I was a ware of nothing, and then not being aware (as in sleep) not knowing that I even exist, until suddenly, I was back.

Alright, what the hell, on with the show.  What’s next, I asked of no one.  Then I sensed a voice.  It said, “think of something or you’ll be bouncing back and forth, in and out of consciousness, forever, or, until you, as an individual energy-form conscious, are no long individual.”  

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