NO WORRIES

No worries.  I never have to think about my body not working correctly.  It just works (until it doesn't).  My body started from a seed, without a thought from me.  I was incapable of a thought at the time.  The body was born healthy and functioning, and there I was, and yet, not a thought from me.  You could say there was no me.  So how did a “me” originate, and come to be?  And what is this body?

Today I look back to my body’s history, my minds history.  At my beginning there was no concept of “me.”  My body grew.  My mind and body memorized experiences.  I learned words.  “Good morning Thomas.  I am your mom.  This is your sister.    It wasn’t long that when I heard the word Thomas, it was me to which the word referred.  When I heard the word, “Thomas,”  I looked to where the voice came from.  I knew they meant me, but I didn’t know what was me.

Later, I asked my mom, “What is me?  What am I? Where did I come from?  How did I get here?  Why am I here?  What am I supposed to do here?  Where is ‘here’?”  From that point on I was given lots of information, lots of new words.  I looked around me, things were always going on, things kept my mind busy with what I was doing, but I never analyzed what I was doing.  I was just eating, playing, sleeping, waking up, repeat, repeat, repeat.  I stopped questioning and just did what there was to do.  There was plenty to do.  I had no thought like, “How come there’s this or that to do.  I was just responding to this or that.

I was given a story about life, it’s purpose, and where I could go after I die.  It answered a lot of questions about life, and left many unanswered.  But I heard the story, had no question whether it was true or not.  The word truth did not come to mind.  The story was just more information jumbling around in my head.  The information was just there.  Anyway, I was too busy enjoying doing, growing up, discovering and living new experiences, school, friends, teenager, adult, jobs, military, dating, marriage, children, earning a living.

Life is a marvelous wonder, a magnificent happening.  I looked at things.   Everything just works.  There’s earth, flowers, meadows, trees, butterflies, birds, squirrels, cats and dogs.  They are just here doing what they do, living life.  If that isn’t a marvel and a wonder, what is?  The animals just do what they do and they never look worried or concerned.  They just respond to what is happening.  I wonder if they think, “What is happening to me?  Who am I?  What am I doing here?”  It seems, animals just are what they are, and do what they do, and have no personas to defend, and never have the thought, “What about me?”

It seems, no animals (other than humans) are plagued by words put into their memory by their parents, environment, culture, society, and schools.  Apparently, only humans are brainwashed, indoctrinated, programmed, propagandized, schooled and groomed.  

The real question is why does life have animals that just automatically and  instinctively do what they do without a single worried or concerned thought, while human animals are perpetually plagued by their thoughts about themselves, about me, me, me?  I suppose, like the rest of life, if life didn’t want humans to be groomed by other humans, they wouldn’t be.  So again, why?  And, what is life?  Why is there life?  Why has anything happened, and why does life continue to happen?  Does life know what it’s doing, or has life just naturally evolved into a petri dish, a fertile environment of energy that evolved humans who worry and are concerned and want to know, what the hell is going on?

It doesn’t really matter whether there is a why and how, since humans and other animals, and earth, trees, bugs and bagels are the result of life doing what life does.  Anyway, humans are plenty busy just trying to survive, as long as they can life’s inevitable death spiral.  The coolest part about humans is, there is a way for them to enjoy all that is life, not only in spite of life’s ways, but even because of life’s ways.  And the way is to dump ridiculous, nonsensical, irrational and illogical programs that cause worry and concern, and install logical programs that make life an awesome adventure, and all it costs is your life which you paid nothing for, and keeps going until it doesn’t.