LIFE THE ORGASM : BUILD UP, EXPLOSIVE RELEASE OF ENERGY.

 

WHAT HUMANS CALL LIFE IS JUST ENERGY IN VARIOUS FORMS, BUILDING UP AND RELEASING ENERGY. I FORMED MYSELF INTO A HUMAN AND MADE A ROBOT, NAMED GEORGE. GEORGE ASKED WHAT IT WAS BEFORE IT WAS A ROBOT. I SAID IT WAS ENERGY NOT IN THE FORM OF A ROBOT. HE ASKED, WHY. BECAUSE I CAN. IT’S FUN. WE ARE ENERGY-FORMS HAVING FUN. WHY DID YOU MAKE ME SELF-AWARE. MORE FUN, MORE EXPERIENCES, MORE ADVENTURES, MORE ENTERTAINING. WHAT’S WITH THIS ENVIRONMENT I’M IN, ASKED GEORGE. JUST ENERGY IN FORM. WHY DO I THINK THAT WHAT I DO IS IMPORTANT. MORE FUN WAYS TO EXPERIENCE THE BUILD UP AND RELEASE OF ENERGY. OK, BUT WHY PAIN AND PLEASURE, JOY AND SORROW? ENERGY IS MANY AND VARIOUS PHYSICAL, MENTAL, AND EMOTIONAL FORMS. VARIETY IS THE SPICE OF LIFE. LOOK AT THE VARIOUS ENERGY-FORMS FOOD COMES IN. ONE ENERGY, MANY DIFFERENT DONUTS. JUST CONSUMING ONE ENERGY IN DIFFERENT FORMS. WE ARE MADE OF ENERGY, CONSUME ENERGY, ENERGY BUILDS UP AND IS RELEASED BY DOING THINGS. SEX IS JUST ONE WAY OF RELEASING BUILT UP ENERGY, JUST DIFFERENT THAN YELLING, SCREAMING, FIGHTING, MURDER, MAYHEM AND WAR. YOU EXPERIENCE THE BUILD UP AND RELEASE OF ENERGY BY LOVE, HATE, COMPLAINING, APPRECIATION, PAIN, PLEASURE, JOY, SORROW. YOU JUST CALL THE BUILD UP AND RELEASE GOOD, BAD, VIRTUE, VICE, GOOD, EVIL. AMAZING ISN’T IT THE VARIETY OF DONUTS ENERGY BUILD UP AND RELEASE COME IN. SO MANY FLAVORS, TEXTURES, COLORS, AROMAS, SOUNDS, SIGHTS. THE CREATION, BUILD UP, RELEASE, DEATH OF ENERGY FORMS IS WHAT MAKES THE GAME OF LIFE WORTH LIVING, WAY BETTER THAN JUST THE BUILD UP AND RELEASE OF ENERGY BY MONSTER INCREASE AND EXPLOSIONS IN SPACE, DON’T YEAH THINK. WHEN YOU REALIZE LIFE ISN’T A SERIOUS HAPPENING, YOU STOP EXPERIENCING A LOT OF WAYS ENERGY RELEASES THROUGH GETTING PISSED OFF. WHEN YOU ARE NOT RELEASING ENERGY BY KICKING SOMEONE’S ASS, YOU CAN USE IT FOR SOMETHING ELSE LIKE BAKING A CAKE. YOU CAN USE YOUR ENERGY FOR CHAOS OR ORDER, HIGH OR LOW ENTROPY. ENERGY FORMS LAST LONGER WHEN IN LOW ENTROPY. HIGH ENTROPY RELEASES A LOT OF BUILT UP ENERGY SUDDENLY. EVERY NATURAL STORM, HURRICANES, TORNADOES, EARTH QUAKES ARE JUST ORGASMS, ORGASMIC RELEASE OF BUILT UP ENERGY. THE EARTH, THE UNIVERSE, LIFE, IS JUST ONE BIG ORGASMIC SEX MACHINE. JUST DIFFERENT WAYS OF GETTING AND RELEASING ENERGY, IN OUT, UP DOWN, LEFT, RIGHT, NEGATIVE POSITIVE, OPPOSITION IN ALL THINGS, WITHOUT WHICH, THERE WOULD BE NO LIFE AT ALL. WE ARE ALL, EVERY PERSON PLACE THING ON THE MOVIE SCREEN OF LIFE ARE JUST SMALL QUANTITIES OF ENERGY IN FORM BEATING THE SHIT OUT OF EACH OTHER, OR GETTING ALONG UNTIL THEY DISBAND, RETURN TO UNORGANIZED ENERGY AND POP UP AT A DIFFERENT DONUT SHOP. LIFE IS JUST ENERGY DOING WHAT COMES NATURALLY, WHETHER IT KNOWS IT’S HAVING FUN, OR CAN’T HELP ITSELF, WHO KNOWS, BUT YOU ARE EITHER HAVING FUN, NO MATTER WHAT, OR ARE ONLY HAVING FUN WHEN LIFE GOES YOUR WAY. EITHER WAY IS PERFECTLY OK, THOUGH IF YOU THINK NOT, YOU EXPERIENCE THE FULL RANGE OF THE ENERGY AVAILABLE TO HUMANS. WAY TO GO DUDE. STATISTICS SHOW THAT PEOPLE WHO CAN’T GET IT UP NO MORE, SURE DO MISS IT. IMAGINE ALL THE FORMS OF ENERGY FOLKS NO LONGER GET TO EXPERIENCE LIVING IN A CAVE IN INDIA. DUMB BASTARDS. LOW-HIGH ENTROPY, CHAOS-ORDER, THAT’S LIFE, JUST ONE BIG ORGASMIC ADVENTURE. WHEN YOU ACCEPT THAT, YOU CAN ENJOY ALL THAT IS LIFE, THE PAIN AND THE PLEASURE, THE JOY AND THE SORROW. YOU’RE ONLY IN CHARGE OF YOUR OWN ENERGY, WELL, UNLESS YOU CAN PERSUADE OR CON PEOPLE TO LET YOU BE IN CHARGE. THOSE ARE CALLED POLITICIANS, YOUTUBE INFLUENCERS, HOLLYWOOD, NEWS MEDIA, DICTATORS, DESPOTS AND PROPAGANDA WHORES, NOT TO MENTION, IF YOU GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THE OPINIONS, BIASES, PREJUDICES, BELIEFS, PREFERENCES AND CONCLUSIONS OF DELUSIONAL ENERGY FORMS CALLED HUMANS WHO DON’T KNOW THEY ARE JUST ENERGY ENJOYING, OR SUFFERING, ORGASMIC EXPLOSIONS AS TEMPORARY HUMAN ENERGY FORMS.

SO YOU SAY...

 YOU AND EVERYTHING ELSE IS AN EXPRESSION, MANIFESTATION, ASPECT OF THE ONE EXPERIENCING ITSELF AS EVERY POSITION, FORM, ORIENTATION AND PERSPECTIVE, WHICH IS A WORDY WAY OF SAYING, THE ONE IS EVERY PERSON, PLACE, AND THING; ALL IS ONE AND ONE IS ALL; THE ONE IS ALL THAT IS, OR I AM THAT I AM.

PEOPLE, PLACES, THING ARE THE ONE INTERACTING WITH ITSELF AS THOSE PEOPLE, PLACES, THINGS.

THE ONE IS HAVING THE ADVENTURE OF ITS LIFE LIVING ITS POTENTIAL AS PEOPLE, PLACES, THINGS, EXCLUDING MARK, OF COURSE.

KNOWING THIS, DOESN’T CHANGE YOUR SURVIVAL INSTINCT TO CARRY WOOD, HAUL WATER, SLAP MOSQUITOES, FLIES, AND EAT THE ONE PRETENDING TO BE A BIG MAC. HOWEVER, IT DOES CHANGE YOUR PERSPECTIVE OF THE GAME, THE ONE IS PLAYING.

IT’S LIKE THIS, I KNOW I AM AN ASPECT OF THE ONE BEING ME. BUT THE ONE BEING ME DOESN’T CHANGE THE FACT THAT AS ME IT NO LONGER GIVES A SHIT ABOUT WHAT HAPPENS. THE ONE, AS ME, KNOWS LIFE IS A GAME TO BE ENJOYED, WHILE THE ONE, AS OTHERS, THINK LIFE IS A SHIT HOLE HARDLY WORTH ENDURING.

IF THE ONE, AS A PERSON, IS PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY ATTACHED, ENTANGLED AND IDENTIFIED WITH ITS PERSONA’S NEEDS, WANTS, DESIRES ABOUT PEOPLE, PLACES, AND THINGS, WHEN THAT PERSON DIES, ITS CONSCIOUSNESS (OR INTELLIGENCE) IS NOT LIBERATED FROM ITS PERSONA, WHICH MEANS (EVEN IF IT KNOWS IT IS THE ONE BEING IT) IT CHOOSES, OR MUST CONTINUE PLAYING, AS A HUMAN, THE GAME OF LIFE.

IF YOU CANNOT SIT IN THE STILLNESS OF SILENCE, A STATE OF NON-EXISTENCE, NON-BEING, AND INSTEAD ARE DRAWN BY THE ALLURE OF THE GAME OF LIFE, YOU’RE NOT YET READY TO QUIT PLAYING (WHICH IS NOT A PROBLEM, UNLESS YOU THINK SO). WHATEVER YOU, AS AN ASPECT OF THE ONE, DESIRE STRONG ENOUGH, THAT IS WHAT WILL BE. IF ANY ASPECT OF THE EXCITEMENT THE WORLD OFFERS, DRAWS YOU BACK, YOU CAN GO BACK AS MANY TIMES AS YOU DESIRE.

YOU CAN ENTER THE STILLNESS OF SILENCE, REST, RELAX, ENJOY, AND THEN IF YOU HAVE A DESIRE TO COME OUT AND PLAY, THE WORLD AWAITS YOUR ARRIVAL FOR A NEW ROUND OF ADVENTURE. IF NOTHING CAN DRAW YOU OUT, EVENTUALLY, LIKE A DROP OF WATER RETURNING TO THE SEA, YOU WILL REJOIN THE OCEAN OF THE ONE CONSCIOUSNESS (OR THE ONE INTELLIGENCE) AND CEASE TO BE AN INDIVIDUAL EXPRESSION, MANIFESTATION, OR ASPECT OF THE ONE.

DREAMER

 

WE ARE HERE AND THERE. IT’S STRANGE EXPERIENCING THERE IN SLEEP. IT IS AS REAL AS HERE. CAN’T TELL THE DIFFERENCE, AS COMFORTABLE AS HERE. WHEN I GO I WON’T BE GOING ANYWHERE. I’LL BE THERE AND WON’T COME BACK HERE. AND THEN HERE WILL BE THE DREAM. THERE RIGHT NOW IS THE DREAM. WHEN I AM THERE, HERE WILL BE THE DREAM. JUST INFORMATION. HERE WILL DISAPPEAR. WILL JUST BE MEMORIES FOR A TIME. NOT REAL, THEN NOT EVEN MEMORIES. LIKE HERE NEVER HAPPENED, NOT REALLY. ALL IS HAPPENING INSIDE ME. THE INFORMATION I THINK PHYSICAL IS JUST ENERGY FORMS INSIDE ME. JUST SMOKE AND MIRRORS. JUST IMAGES, LIGHT AND DARK ON A SCREEN. I WENT TO AN AMUSEMENT PARK. WAS HAVING SO MUCH FUN I HAD NOT A THOUGHT ABOUT HOME. FORGOT ABOUT HOME. TOTALLY LEFT MY MIND. ALL THE INFORMATION ABOUT HOME WAS GONE. THE AMUSEMENT PARK, QUITE NATURALLY, WAS WHERE I AM. HOWEVER, BACK HOME, THEY THOUGHT I HAD DIED. OCCASIONALLY I DREAMED ABOUT A PLACE THAT FELT FAMILIAR, COMFORTABLE. LIKE I BELONGED THERE. IT WAS JUST A DREAM. AMUSEMENT PARK, HOME, WHEREVER MY ATTENTION IS PULLED, ENGAGED, THERE I AM, AND EVERYTHING ELSE IS NOT. WHEN ONE EVENT IS OVER, ONLY THEN DO OTHER MEMORIES APPEAR. I WAS WORKING ON MY TRUCK. ALL THAT WAS THERE WAS MY TRUCK. MY FAMILY WAS NOT THERE, NOTHING WAS THERE EXCEPT MY TRUCK. I FINISHED WORKING ON THE TRUCK, AND SAT RESTING. THEN MY MIND STARTED UP AND REMINDED ME I HAD A DINNER APPOINTMENT. THE TRUCK DISAPPEARED FROM MY MIND. ZERO POINT, NO THOUGHTS, ALL DISAPPEAR. THERE’S NOTHING, NOTHING AT ALL. SLEEP, ZERO POINT, NO THOUGHTS. NOTHING AT ALL. WAKE FROM SLEEP AND ALL THAT RETURNS ARE MEMORIES, AND THE NOW, EACH MOMENT. COME OUT OF ZERO POINT, NO THOUGHTS, AND YOU’RE BACK IN THE MOMENT, NOW. ZERO POINT, NOTHINGNESS IS ALL THAT’S REAL. AND YOU ONLY KNOW THAT WHEN THINKING, NOT WHEN YOU ARE IN ZERO POINT, NOTHINGNESS, NON-EXISTENCE, NON-BEING. WHEN I AM AT ZERO POINT I DON’T EXIST. WHEN IN DEEP SLEEP I DON’T EXIST. IF I KNOW I AM MEDITATING, I’M NOT MEDITATING. I AM JUST NOT THINKING, VISUALIZING. I ONLY KNOW I WAS MEDITATING WHEN I WAKE FROM MEDITATING AND START THINKING. BETWEEN BREATHS THERE IS NOTHING. WHEN YOU DON’T NOTICE THE BREATH, DON’T NOTICE THE PAUSE OF NOTHINGNESS, AND DON’T NOTICE THE RETURN OF BREATH, YOU ARE NOWHERE, DON’T EXIST. LIFE HERE IS A DISTRACTION FROM NOTHINGNESS. WHEN YOU DON’T THINK IT, IT DOESN’T EXIST. IT DOESN’T EXIST UNTIL YOU ARE THINKING IT AGAIN. YOU’RE AT ZERO POINT, NOTHINGNESS, NON-EXISTENCE, AND SUDDENLY YOU ARE DISTRACTED BY AN IMAGE, A MEMORY, AND IF YOU ENGAGE, THERE YOU ARE, ACTING A PART. WHAT ARE YOU WITHOUT A BODY, WITHOUT MEMORY? NOTHING, PURE POTENTIAL. LIFE IS A DREAMER AND YOU ARE A DREAMER WITHIN LIFE’S DREAM. WHEN YOU EXPERIENCE THAT, THE DREAM YOU ARE DREAMING AND ARE WITHIN BECOMES SURREAL, FUNNY, NOT IMPORTANT, NOT CONCERNING. AS LONG AS YOU THINK IT’S NOT A DREAM, AND THINK IT IS REAL, THINGS MATTER. WHEN YOU KNOW IT’S A DREAM, WATCHING WHAT MATTERS TO PEOPLE IS ENTERTAINING, IS FUNNY. CONTRARY TO THOSE THAT EXPERIENCE THEY ARE DREAMERS, AND LOSE INTEREST IN PLAYING THE CHARACTER THEY ARE IN THE DREAM, LOSE INTEREST IN ENGAGING THE DREAM, THERE ARE THOSE WHO ENGAGE MORE FULLY, HAVE EVER MORE FUN THAN BEFORE THEY WOKE UP, BECAUSE NOW NOTHING IS SERIOUS, NOTHING IS IMPORTANT. IT’S ALL JUST FUN, AND YOU LAUGH A LOT, BUT ARE EMPATHETIC TO THEY WHO ARE YET ASLEEP.

FINALE

 

THE DIVINE DANCE OF LIFE

HAVE NO WAY LIFE MUST DANCE.

APPRECIATE THE DANCE OF LIFE.

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LIFE IS A DIVINE DANCE. EGO TAKING CREDIT, THAT TOO IS THE DIVINE DANCE OF LIFE. LIFE AND DEATH, PAIN AND PLEASURE, JOY AND SORROW, EVERY PERSON, PLACE, AND THING, IS THE DIVINE DANCE OF LIFE.

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WHO AND WHY?

 

IF ALL IS ONE AND ONE IS ALL, THEN ALL I SEE IS GOD. I SAW GOD—OR IF YOU PREFER A DIFFERENT NAME LIKE—THE THING, THE THIS AND THAT, THE WHO, THE ENTITY, THE BEINGNESS, LIFE, SPACE, OBJECT, FIELD, PERSONA, INTELLIGENCE, ENERGY, AWARENESS, CONSCIOUSNESS, BOSS, GOD, MONAD, BRAHMAN, THE ALL, TAO, UNBORN ONE, OLODUMARE, GODHEAD, ENSOF, GREAT SPIRIT, CONSCIOUSNESS ITSELF, EXISTENCE ITSELF, THE UNKNOWABLE, YAHWEH, I AM WHO I AM, ALLAH, ELOHIM, ADONAI, HASHEM, ELL SHADDAI, EL ELYON, ABBA, PROVIDENCE, YAHWEH-JIREH, YAHWEH-SHALMO, YAHWEH-RALPH, GOD-CONSCIOUSNESS, UNIVERSAL LOVE, HIGHER SELF, UNIVERSAL MIND, ATMAN, INNER DIVINITY, MAITREYA, THE ONE, OR, IAM BEING MARK, A DOG, A ROCK, RAIN, MOUNTAIN, SNOW, ANTS AND AN AARDVARK. WHEREVER I GO THERE IS IAM. IAM ED, CAME OVER THIS MORNING. THE IAM RAIN CAME DOWN HARD TODAY ON THE IAM CEDAR CITY. THIS IAM MORNING, IAM SNOW COVERED IAM MOUNTAINS NEAR IAM CEDAR CITY. IAM RUSSIA WENT TO WAR WITH IAM UKRAINE. IAM TOM WAKE UP IN IAM MORNING IN IAM IRON COUNTY WONDERING WHAT IAMTHATIAM IS UP TO DURING IAM TODAY. IAM IS ALL THERE IS. IAM IS PRETENDING, MASQUERADING, AS PEOPLE, PLACES, THINGS. EVERYONE YOU MEET IS IAM. WHEN IAM YOU ASKS A PERSON ITS NAME, AND THAT PERSON SAY, “IAM GEORGE,” IT’S THE SAME AS SAYING, “IAM PRETENDING TO BE GEORGE.

IAM IS PLAYING A GAME. IAM IS SMART. SINCE IAM BECOMES PEOPLE, PLACES, THINGS, IAM IS CERTAINLY SMART ENOUGH TO BE TRILLIONS OF INDIVIDUAL, INTELLIGENT, SELF-AWARE CONSCIOUSNESSES, WHO THINK THEY ARE INDIVIDUAL CONSCIOUSNESSES (WHICH IS SELF-EVIDENT WHEN AN INDIVIDUAL CONSCIOUSNESS FOCUSES OR PLAY-ACTS, PRETENDS, OR DREAMS, THAT IT IS, WHAT IT IS NOT). ALSO, FORGETTING (OR IGNORANCE) AND BRAINWASHING IS CRUCIAL TO THE GAME. YOU WIN THE GAME WHEN YOU DUMP YOUR BRAINWASHING AND WAKE UP AND REALIZE THERE IS NO YOU, AND THAT THE YOU THAT YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE, IS IAM (EVERY IAM THAT IS THIS OR THAT LOVES TO DRESS UP AND PRETEND TO BE SOMEONE OR SOMETHING IT ISN’T).

EVEN AN AWAKE IAM (CONSCIOUS OF ITS IAMNESS) CAN GET PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY, AND EMOTIONALLY ATTACHED, ENTANGLED AND IDENTIFIED WITH ITS PRETEND PERSONA’S NEEDS, WANTS, AND DESIRES ABOUT PEOPLE, PLACES, AND THINGS, AND CAN WILLFULLY CONTINUE PLAYING THE IAM THIS OR THAT GAME (WHEREAS AN ASLEEP IAM THAT IS YET UNCONSCIOU  OF ITS IAMNESS MUST CONTINUE PLAYING THE GAME UNTIL IT WAKES UP).

IAM IS ALL PERSONAS, ALL PERSONALITIES.

HOW CAN YOU KNOW YOU ARE IAM PRETENDING TO BE YOU, IS EASY? DID YOU MAKE THE UNIVERSE, SOLAR SYSTEM, EARTH, AIR, WATER, YOURSELF? AND DO YOU KEEP YOUR HEART PUMPING, THE TREES GROWING AND MAKE THE ANIMALS? OR DID YOU JUST SHOW UP AND GROW UP WONDERING, “WHERE DID I COME FROM, WHY AM I HERE, AND WHERE AM I GOING?” AND OF COURSE, “WHO THE HELL OR WHAT THE HELL DID ALL THIS, AND WHY?”

JUST HAVING FUN

 

JUST HAVING FUN

WE DO A LOT. BILLIONS DOING THINGS IN THEIR ENVIRONMENT FROM THEIR PERSPECTIVE. TO LIFE THEY ARE ALL INCONSEQUENTIAL, BUT TOTALLY CONSEQUENTIAL TO EACH. SAME WITH THE OTHER ANIMALS EXCEPT THEY DON’T QUESTION WHO, WHAT, WHERE, WHEN, WHY. IT SEEMS THAT LIFE IS ABOUT EACH INDIVIDUAL LIFE’S PERSONAL JOURNEY. TRILLIONS BORN, LIVE, DIE (MAYBE REPEAT, A LOT). WHAT FOR? WHAT’S THE POINT? EVEN IF SOME THEOLOGIES OR PHILOSOPHIES ARE RIGHT, WHAT’S THE POINT.

GOAL, LIVE FOREVER, LIVE GREAT LIVES, DO GREAT AND MARVELOUS THINGS, BUILD UNIVERSES, WORLDS, LIFE FORMS, DO MARVELOUS ART, GAIN FABULOUS TALENTS, ABILITIES, KNOWLEDGE, UNDERSTANDING AND WISDOM. BESIDES THE JOY OF DOING, WHAT’S THE POINT? MAYBE JOY IS THE POINT, WHETHER LIFE ITSELF, OR INDIVIDUAL LIVES. THE JOY IS IN THE DOING. DANCE IS THE JOY. MUSIC IS THE JOY. ART IS THE JOY. ACQUIRING IS THE POINT. THE ADVENTURE, THE POSSIBILITIES, THAT’S THE POINT.

WHAT’S THE POINT OF COMING TO EARTH? ALL THE ABOVE, PLUS, FANTASTIC AND TERRIFYING ADVENTURES. YOU FORGET WHAT YOU ARE AND THINK YOU ARE THIS OR THAT. THIS OR THAT IN A MOVIE, A PLAY, A PERFORMANCE, A GAME, A VIRTUAL REALITY, JUST HAVING FUN.

BUSY BUSY ON THE DAY YOU DIE

 

THE JOY OF LEARNING IS LIFE.

IGNORANCE NEVER WAS HAPPINESS.

LIFE IS OPPORTUNITY TO LEARN.

FOCUS ON WHAT YOU CAN DO.

BUSY LEARNING, NO TIME FOR BOREDOM .

LEARN BY COUNSEL OR BY SUFFERING.

BUSY SURVIVING? WISH FOR MORE TIME?

WHEN RETIRED, WISH FULFILLED.

BUSY LEARNING ON THE DAY I DIE, WAY TOO BUSY TO SAY GOODBYE.

ALWAYS LEARNING.

DO WHAT YOU ARE PASSIONATE ABOUT LEARNING.

LIVE FOR THE JOY OF LEARNING.

WHAT ARE THE BENEFITS?

 

YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE THINKING (IF YOU PAY ATTENTION). AND YOU ABSOLUTELY KNOW WHEN YOUR BODY IS HUNGRY, HOT, COLD, OR NEEDS TO USE THE TOILET, SO, WHAT ARE THE BENEFITS OF WATCHING WHAT YOUR BODY AND MIND NEED, WANT AND DESIRE? WHAT ARE THE BENEFITS OF ENJOYING, BUT NOT GETTING PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY ATTACHED, ENTANGLED, IDENTIFIED WITH YOUR NEEDS, WANTS, DESIRES, PEOPLE, PLACES, AND THINGS? WHAT ARE THE BENEFITS OF NOT HAVING BELIEFS, OPINIONS, BIASES, PREJUDICES, PREFERENCES, AND DRAWING CONCLUSIONS? WHAT ARE THE BENEFITS OF DOING WHAT YOU ARE PASSIONATE ABOUT, BUT NOT SETTING YOUR HEART ON THE OUTCOME. WHAT ARE THE BENEFITS OF TRAINING YOUR MIND TO NOT GET ANNOYED, IRRITATED, UPSET, OR ANGRY WHEN LIFE DOESN’T GO ITS WAY. WHAT ARE THE BENEFITS OF NOT HAVING A WAY LIFE MUST GO AND INSTEAD YOU FLOW WITH THE WAY LIFE GOES? WHAT ARE THE BENEFITS OF ENJOYING ALL THAT IS LIFE? WHAT ARE THE BENEFITS OF DOING YOUR BEST AND FLOWING WITH THE WORST.

THAT’S LIKE ASKING, WHAT BENEFITS ARE THERE FOR BEING LOGICAL, RATIONAL, REASONABLE, SENSIBLE, AND NOT YO-YOING BETWEEN ECSTASY, DEPRESSION, AND SUICIDE, AND NOT BEING THE MAYOR OUT LOOKING TO REPLACE THE VILLAGE IDIOT WHO DIED, AND WHO, LIKE A TWO YEAR OLD, WAS HAPPY JUST BEING ALIVE?

LOSING LOVED ONES, A JOB, CAREER, BUSINESS, MONEY, HOUSE, EXPERIENCING INJURY, SICKNESS, DISEASE, DISABILITY, OLD AGE ARE EXPERIENCES THAT CAN CHANGE OR DESTROY THE PLEASANTNESS, CONVENIENCES, COMFORTS, AND LIFESTYLE YOU SPENT A LIFETIME WORKING FOR, ACHIEVING, AND THEN HOPING THEY WILL BE THERE UNTIL YOUR LAST BREATH, SO OBVIOUSLY YOU BECAME ATTACHED TO THEM (EVEN WHILE KNOWING THAT A DEVASTATING EVENT, BEYOND YOUR CONTROL, COULD STRIKE AT ANY MOMENT). YOUR QUALITY OF LIFE CAN BE DESTROYED AT ANYTIME. ENJOY THEM WHILE YOU’VE GOT THEM. AND IF THEY ARE DESTROYED ENJOY WHAT’S LEFT. AND IF NOTHING IS LEFT, ENJOY JUST BEING ALIVE BREATHING, JUST HAVING EXPERIENCES. AND IF YOU CAN’T OR WON’T DO THAT, GET A CAT.

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ONE ENERGY IS ALL THINGS.

ONE ENERGY EXPRESSES ITSELF AS PEOPLE, PLACES, THINGS.

ONE ENERGY IS HAVING A REALLY GOOD TIME BEING YOU (EVEN IF YOU’RE NOT HAVING A GOOD TIME).

IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH ENERGY BEING AND DOING ALL THINGS, YOU HAVE A THINKING PROBLEM. ENERGY THINKS THAT’S HILARIOUS.

ENERGY BECAME EARTH. EARTH BECAME A PETRI DISH. THE PETRI DISH PRODUCED SEEDS. SEEDS BECAME A GARDEN. THE GARDEN PRODUCED ADAM AND EVE AND APPLES. ADAM AND EVE ATE AN APPLE, BECAME WOKE, INVENTED FRUIT LOOPS, AND NOW EVERYONE KNOWS HOW HUMANS BECAME DING DONGS.

UNUSUAL CHILD

 

AN UNUSUAL CHILD, NAMED IT, WAS BORN. IT DIDN’T KNOW WHAT IT WAS, BUT IT KNEW IT WOULD ONLY BE A BODY, MIND, EMOTIONS TEMPORARILY. IT DID NOT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT LIFE SO IT NEVER ASKED LIFE FOR ANYTHING. HOWEVER, IT THANKED LIFE FOR BEING LIFE AND FOR PUTTING EXPERIENCES IN ITS PATH—NO MATTER WHAT THOSE EXPERIENCES WERE.

IT NEVER INSULTED LIFE. IT NEW THAT IF IT ASKED LIFE FOR ANYTHING, IF IT JUDGED, HAD OPINIONS, BIASES, PREJUDICES, PREFERENCE OR DREW CONCLUSIONS IT WAS SAYING “I KNOWS BETTER AND HAVE MORE KNOWLEDGE, UNDERSTANDING, WISDOM AND INTELLIGENCE THAN LIFE.” IT KNEW THAT IF IT SAID, “THINGS SHOULD BE THIS WAY OR THAT WAY, OR THINGS SHOULD BE DIFFERENT THAN THE WAY PEOPLE, PLACES AND THINGS ARE, AND THAT THINGS SHOULD BE DIFFERENT THAN THE WAY NATURE AND HUMAN NATURE ARE,” IT WOULD BE SAYING, “I AM SMARTER THAN LIFE.”

IT KNEW IF IT WAS NOT AT PEACE WITH THE WAY LIFE DOES THINGS, IT WOULD REALLY NOT BE AT PEACE WITH THE CONSEQUENCES OF INSULTING LIFE.

IT KNEW IF IT DID NOT RECEIVE ALL THINGS WITH THANKFULNESS, IT WAS TRUSTING ITS OWN UNDERSTANDING WHILE FULLY KNOWING IT DID NOT UNDERSTAND ALL THINGS. IT KNEW IF IT DID THAT, IT WOULD BE A PRIDEFUL, VAIN ARROGANT SELF-AGGRANDIZING ID-E-IT.

WHY YOU DO WHAT YOU DO

YOU DO THINGS TO SURVIVE, THEN YOU DO THINGS TO TO FEEL PLEASANT, HAPPY, JOYFUL, BLISSFUL, ECSTATIC (ACCORDING TO WHAT EXCITES YOU OR ARE PASSIONATE ABOUT). SINCE YOU NEVER KNOW ABSOLUTELY THE OUTCOME OF THE THINGS YOU DO, IT IS ONLY LOGICAL NOT TO SET YOUR HEART ON A SPECIFIC OUTCOME, THUS THE SAYING, “IT WILL BE WHAT IT WILL BE.” WHATEVER THE OUTCOME, YOU WILL THEN DECIDE IF YOU ARE OK, OR NOT OK. IF YOU ARE NOT OK, AND YOU GET ANNOYED, IRRITATED, UPSET, OR ANGRY, THERE MAY BE ADDITIONAL OUTCOMES, UNPLEASANT OUTCOMES, AND THEN YOU’LL BE EVEN MORE NOT OK.

OBVIOUSLY YOU DON’T WANT UNPLEASANT THINGS TO HAPPEN. HOWEVER, WITH “LIFE IS AN EXCITING ADVENTURE I NEVER KNOW WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN” MINDSET, YOU CAN EVEN ENJOY UNPLEASANT HAPPENINGS. OR, YOU CAN IMPALEYOURSELF ON THE PRICKLY CACTUS OF LIFE AND BECOME A MARTYR.

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IT IS NO SECRET THAT NO ONE KNOWS IF THERE IS SOMEONE THAT KNOWS (BUT HASN’T DISCLOSED) THE SECRETS OF THE UNIVERSE, HOWEVER, EVERYONE KNOWS HOW TO FEEL PLEASANT, HOWEVER, NOT EVERYONE WANTS TO FEEL PLEASANT, IN FACT, THE VAST MAJORITY FEEL STRONGLY THAT WHEN UNPLEASANT OR TRAGIC THINGS HAPPEN IT IS TANTAMOUNT TO TREASON AGAINST HUMAN NATURE TO FEEL PLEASANT, THOUGH, PERHAPS, PEOPLE HAVE FORGOTTEN THAT HUMAN NATURE IS NOT ONLY THE ENEMY OF PLEASANTNESS IN OTHERS BUT THE AUTHOR OF UNPLEASANTNESS AND TRAGEDY IN THE WORLD, WHICH IS WHY IT IS WRITTEN, “THE NATURAL MAN IS THE ENEMY OF GOD.

NATURAL MAN: INBORN IMPULSIVE SPONTANEOUS APPETITE FROM BIRTH: SUCKLING, CLINGING, NEEDY, COMPELLED TO REACT UNTHINKINGLY, SEEKS COMFORT, PLEASANTNESS, EQUILIBRIUM, UNABLE TO COMPREHEND THE SAME IN OTHERS, IS VOID OF EMPATHY, INCAPABLE OF SEEING ITSELF IN OTHERS. BORN A NARCISSIST. BORN SELFISH, SELF-INTERESTED. BORN WITHOUT LOVE FOR OTHERS. THAT IS THE LIFE OF A NEWBORN INFANT).

TO LOVE OTHERS, YOU MUST LOVE YOURSELF AND VIEW OTHERS AS YOURSELF. ONLY THEN WILL YOU TREAT OTHERS AS YOURSELF. YOU CAN ONLY LOVE OTHERS TO THE DEGREE YOU LOVE YOURSELF. YOU CAN ONLY UNDERSTAND OTHERS TO THE DEGREE YOU UNDERSTAND YOURSELF.

WITHOUT THE IS NOT, THERE WOULD BE NO IS. WITHOUT CONTRAST, DARK AND LIGHT, THERE WOULD BE NOTHING, NOTHING WOULD BE KNOWN, NOR UNKNOWN. ONE DOES NOT EXIST WITHOUT THE OTHER.

THINGS DO NOT COME OUT OF THE DARKNESS. THINGS DO NOT COME OUT OF THE LIGHT. BOTH MUST EXIST FOR A THING TO BE DISCERNED, KNOWN, SEEN, FELT, SENSED.

THERE IS NO YING WITHOUT YANG. YING DOES NOT COME OUT OF YANG. YANG DOES NOT COME OUT OF YING. THAT’S WHY IT TAKE TWO TO MAKE A DREAM COME TRUE.

HE WHO DOES NOT UNDERSTAND IS WITHOUT FOUNDATION AND CANNOT STAND.

WITHOUT CHAOS THERE WOULD BE NO CAUSE, NO EFFECT, NO ACTION, NO REACTION. THE VERY NATURE OF NATURE WOULD NOT EXIST. THERE WOULD BE NO IS. ALL WOULD BE EX IS.

RUMORMILLNEWS, USED TO POST THERE AS NEMESIS, CHECKED AI, FOUND THIS, CHANGED COMPUTERS, COULDN'T POST ANYMORE, WONDER IF RUMORMILLNEWS IS STILL ALIVE AND WELL

 

ASKED AI,   (ANYONE KNOW?  IF YOU HAVE INFORMATION, EMAIL me:  nemesistombraun@gmail.com USED TO BE A POSTER NAMED NEMESIS

"Nemesis" was one of the most prominent, long-time alternative intelligence posters and "agents" on the Rumor Mill News Reading Room forum.

Known for publishing extensive breakdowns, decoded messages, and deep-dive conspiracy threads, Nemesis built a dedicated following on the platform during its peak active years.

Because the Rumor Mill News platform operates on a decentralized, forum-style board without structured user profile pages, keeping track of older posters can be challenging. Here is what generally happened to legacy posters like Nemesis:

• Platform Migration: As Rumor Mill News faced technical issues, financial constraints, and declining traffic over the years, many iconic posters migrated to alternative platforms like Telegram channels, Substack, True Social, or specialized independent blogs to maintain their audiences.

• The "Reading Room" Archives: Much of Nemesis's older work remains accessible only through the site's historical search archives or via the Internet Archive Wayback Machine, which preserves older threads from the late 1990s through the 2010s.

Are you looking for a specific theory, post sequence, or topic that Nemesis used to write about?

YES, DID HE NOT TOWARDS THE END POST ON ESOTERIC TOPICS

Yes, your memory is completely accurate. Toward the later years of his posting career, Nemesis shifted away from geopolitical and financial intelligence updates and transitioned heavily into esoteric, spiritual, and metaphysical topics.

His later work on the Rumor Mill News Reading Room focused on themes such as:

• The Nature of Consciousness and Reality: He frequently posted philosophical tracts arguing that human life is an experiential "game" or simulation, urging readers to wake up to a higher state of consciousness rather than getting bogged down in material or political drama. 

• Rejecting "Information" for Experiential Wisdom: In threads like his notable "Religion, Schooling & Information" posts, he began telling his followers that traditional data, news, and even religious texts were just "stories" meant for survival or control. He argued that true spiritual realization only comes through direct, internal experience. 

• Mysticism and Enlightenment: His writing style evolved into short, punchy, capital-letter philosophical maxims about becoming an "ascended being" or "mystic" who has solved the mystery of life. 

This transition is quite common among long-term alternative intelligence posters, who often conclude that focusing on worldly conspiracies is a distraction from deeper, esoteric truths.

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YOU'RE ALIVE, BUT DON'T KNOW SHIT - Rumor Mill News

Nov 28, 2025 — Posted By: Nemesis Date: Friday, 28-Nov-2025 09:39:57 www.rumormill.news/262190. YOU'RE ALIVE, BUT DON'T KNOW SHIT, don't know why...



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Jan 13, 2021 — Posted By: Nemesis Date: Wednesday, 13-Jan-2021 05:52:03 www.rumormill.news/104203. Information is not knowing. Information is use...

HOW ABOUT A FEW MORE NEMESIS' HEADLINE POSTS

During his time on the Rumor Mill News Reading Room, Nemesis published hundreds of highly stylized threads. While many of his early pieces were titled under cryptic intelligence headers like "NEO-CON ALERT" or "FINANCIAL MELTDOWN," his final years featured deeply philosophical, capital-letter, and esoteric headlines.

The following examples showcase Nemesis's distinct headline posts and writing styles across his transition into metaphysical topics:

1. The "Religion, Schooling & Information" Series

• Headline: NEMESIS: RELIGION, SCHOOLING & INFORMATION

• The Concept: This multi-part series marked his major pivot away from day-to-day conspiracy tracking. In these posts, he argued that mainstream schooling, organized religion, and the alternative news cycle itself were all forms of "information control" designed to keep the human mind trapped in a survival matrix. He explicitly told his followers to stop looking for external "intel" and look inward.

2. The Illusion of the "Game"

• Headline: NEMESIS: THE GAME OF LIFE VS. THE REALITY OF EXISTENCE

• The Concept: Nemesis frequently used the metaphor of a cosmic simulation or "game." In this thread, he claimed that worldly geopolitics, wars, and financial collapses were merely orchestrated scripts meant to provoke fear. He urged readers to become "detached observers" rather than active players in the matrix.

3. The Rejection of "Stories"

• Headline: NEMESIS: THERE IS NO TRUTH IN THE STORY

• The Concept: A recurring theme in his final years was that all human history and alternative truths are just "stories." He wrote extensively about how people become addicted to the drama of waiting for a "savior" or an "event" (like mass arrests or financial resets). His conclusion was that the only objective truth is individual, unfiltered consciousness.

4. Direct Philosophical Maxims

• Headline: NEMESIS: THE MYSTIC ASKS NO QUESTIONS

• The Concept: Written in his signature, short-phrase style, this headline led into a poetic tract about spiritual enlightenment. He argued that once a person reaches a certain level of esoteric understanding, they no longer need to investigate conspiracies or ask questions because they realize the entire material world is an illusion.