You are the ghost in the machine. You are the still small voice. Your brain is the loud noisy voice.
Dump irrational, nonsensical, insane habitual thoughts, and think better thoughts and make them habitual. If an old stupid thought arises from your habitual crap, don’t pay it attention and immediately replace it with a better thought and make THAT THOUGHT habitual.
I just had a thought. Who just had a thought. I did. Are you your brain, or do you have a brain? You have feet, a mouth, ears. Are you your feet, mouth and ears? No I am me. What are you? A body. Then your body has a brain. Do your feet know what they are doing, does your finger? No, but I know what they are doing when I pay attention. The brain is NOT self-aware. You are aware of what your brain is thinking. You watch your body’s brain’s thoughts, and you watch what your body does, watch it’s emotions, monitor its energy, hot, cold, hungry. You watch your brain’s thoughts.
You are the intelligence, the awareness, the observer of your body, mind and emotions. Without you, your body doesn’t know it is decomposing, because you left.
It’s a misconception that your mind is self-aware. Your mind is a computer. It has memory. It calculates. But without you, it would be useless.
A baby’s body has an awareness in it. It is aware when the baby is uncomfortable. Later, when the baby’s brain comes on line and gets information, the awareness observes the baby’s mind working with the information it has. You are the ghost in the machine. You are the still small voice. Your brain is the loud noisy voice.
The awareness that knows what the brain is thinking can retrain the brain. It can train it in the same way it got trained, with better information. Junk in junk out. Awesome in awesome out.
The awareness is you. It is intelligent. It had to wait until the human brain was capable of thinking, wait until it had something to think about.
I just watch my mind, body, emotions. I wait to see what my mind is up to, what my body wants, what emotions might arise. It’s like watching a movie. I know this body is not me. I am the watcher, the observer, the awareness, the intelligence. This body is a wonderful coat I wear while here. This coat came with a computer. Because of the world’s programming, this computer, is kind of nuts. It was nuts. Still spouts bullshit, but I know when it’s doing it. I just laugh. Mostly it’s be retrained. I got rid of its old habitual thoughts and I gave it new thoughts, thoughts that are now habitual.
Whatever my body’s brain is thinking, is theater. It’s not real, though it thinks it’s real, or believes it’s real, and then, to the brain, IT IS REAL. THOUGHTS ARE AS REAL AS YOU THINK THEY ARE.
YOU COULD SAY, YOU ARE THE BREATH OF LIFE, AND YOUR BRAIN IS YOUR HELPMATE. BUT YOU NEED TO DUMP ALL ITS BULLSHIT FIRST. IT TAKES A AWHILE TO DUMP YOUR BRAIN’S HABITUAL PROGRAMMED BULLSHIT.
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Thursday, July 17, 2025
BULLSHIT
Wednesday, July 16, 2025
WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?
"How come you’re so full of energy? You’re smiling, laughing, joking. Are you nuts? Here we are fleeing our bombed-out, flooded-out, burned-out city. We’re refugees and don’t know if we will live another day, and you act like were on a hiking adventure. Seriously, what’s wrong with you?"
"You’re right. Something must be wrong with me. I shouldn’t enjoy being a refugee. I too lost EVERYTHING. I should be a miserable, like you. I should be stressed, afraid, and concerned that I might not live through the day. Maybe there’s a psychologist among us. Tonight, if we’re still alive, I’ll see if there is one. Maybe he can help me be a nervous wreck like you. Then I’ll be good company.”
AFTER INTRO OF WHAT HUMANS ARE, THERE'S "no one knows what destruction will happen next."
What IS? LIFE IS. CALL IT WHAT YOU WILL (reality, a dream, mind or imagination of God, a game, a hologram, a movie). LIFE IS A HAPPENING, and within that happening, you happened. And you are a particular point-of-view of LIFE, A FOCAL POINT, and, to make it more convoluted, your brain or mind develops and overlays on LIFE a personal point-of-view.
It’s like you’re a camera that sees only from a certain location, or a point-of-view from which it points, AND THEN, the camera records that information, but before sending that information to the computer (it is hooked up to) it modifies the information, distorts it with its own perspective, its own prejudices, its own preferences, its own opinions, biases, beliefs, dogma, and conclusions.
If the camera didn’t exist with it viewpoint, with its distortions, there would only be LIFE HAPPENING, WITHOUT A SINGLE CAMERA (OR PERSON) TO WATCH LIFE HAPPENING. THERE WOULD ONLY BE LIFE.
AT SOME POINT AFTER THE CAMERA BREAKS, THE MEMORY (WITHOUT THE DISTORTION) ENTERS THE UNIVERSAL MEMORY BANK, AND THE ENERGY THAT WAS THE CAMERA RETURNS TO THE HERD OF ATOMS ROAMING THE UNIVERSE LOOKING FOR OTHER HAPPY HUNTING GROUNDS.
In the meantime, shit is happening on earth. Earth is pissed and doing destruction. Humans are dumb asses and doing weather modification to add to earth’s destruction with genocide, war, starvation, dehydration, and tormenting each other with paper cuts, shunning, yelling and bad attitudes while BBQUING EACH OTHER.
NO ONE KNOWS WHAT DISASTER WILL HAPPEN NEXT.
Tuesday, July 15, 2025
DO WHATEVER THE HELL YOU WANT
WHATEVER IS NOBLE, WHATEVER IS RIGHT, WHATEVER IS PURE, WHATEVER IS LOVELY, WHATEVER IS ADMIRABLE, EXCELLENT OR PRAISEWORTHY—THINK ON THESE THINGS.
Sadhguru: HOLD ON TO ANY MOMENT WHEN YOU FEEL PLEASANTNESS, SWEETNESS-OF-SENSES EXPERIENCE FOR 24 MINUTES, AND IT BECOMES PART OF YOUR LIFE ENERGY-PARANA-SYSTEM, AND IT BECOMES YOUR WAY OF BEING. IF THIS HUMANITY OVERFLOWS, THEN DIVINITY WILL COME IN SEARCH OF YOU.
MAINTAIN YOUR HAPPINESS, JOY, ECSTASY. ALL HAVE EXPERIENCED HAPPINESS, WELL BEING, LEVELS OF JOY EXUBERANCE OF LIFE. LEARN TO MAINTAIN IT. THE ONLY QUESTION IS, HOW JOYFUL ARE YOU HOW MUCH JOY DO YOU GIVE TO PEOPLE AROUND YOU. YOUR INNER-LIFE IS YOUR MAKING. IT IS YOUR ACTION, YOUR DOING. LOVE, SWEETNESS OF EMOTION. TO FEEL LOVE, MEDITATE, THINK, IMAGINE SOMETHING YOU LOVE FOR 24 MINUTES IT BECOMES PART OF YOUR LIFE ENERGY, PRANA SYSTEM. LOOK AT A CAT, A WORM WIGGLING, YOU WILL FEEL APPRECIATION FOR LIFE, YOU WILL FEEL LOVE. YOU WILL BE LOVE. IT IS THE WAY YOU WILL BE.
FREEDOM AND BLISS ARE REWARDS FOR REALIZING YOU DON’T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT LIFE, WHEN YOU DRAW NO CONCLUSIONS ABOUT LIFE, HAVE ZERO CONCLUSIONS ABOUT ANYTHING.
THE MORE YOU ARE INVOLVED IN THE WORLD THE MORE CHALLENGING AND EXCITING IT IS.
THERE ARE THINGS YOU CAN DO AND THINGS YOU CAN’T DO. THERE ARE THINGS YOU CAN GET AND THINGS YOU CAN’T GET. DO WHAT YOU CAN TO DO AND GET WHAT YOU WANT, WHILE AT THE SAME TIME HAVE ZERO CONCERN HOW THINGS TURN OUT, ZERO ATTACHMENT TO GETTING OR NOT GETTING.
THE MORE YOU OBSERVE LIFE, THE LESS YOU THINK. THE LESS YOU THINK, THE MORE YOU ARE LIFE, UNTIL THE MENTAL YOU FINALLY DISAPPEAR, AND YOU REALIZE YOU ARE LIFE ITSELF.
LET GO AND LET IN. ALL THAT IS FOR YOU (ACCORDING TO YOUR CORE VIBRATION) WILL COME TO YOU AUTOMATICALLY. WHAT PREVENTS THINGS FROM COMING TO YOU, ARE THOUGHTS, BELIEFS, CONCLUSIONS, NEEDS, WANTS, DESIRES, PREFERENCES, ATTACHMENTS, ENTANGLEMENTS, IDENTIFICATIONS THAT ARE NOT VIBRATING AT YOUR CORE FREQUENCY. EVERYTHING THAT IS IN ALIGNMENT WITH YOUR CORE VIBRATION IS DOING ITS BEST TO GET TO YOU. EVERYTHING THAT IS NOT YOUR CORE VIBRATION IS TRYING TO GET AS FAR AWAY FROM YOU AS POSSIBLE.
HOW TO DISCERN WHAT IS FOR YOU AND WHAT IS NOT FOR YOU: YOUR CURRENT CORE VIBRATION IS A REFLECTION NOT OF WHAT YOU ESSENTIALLY AND ACTUALLY ARE, BUT RATHER, WHERE YOUR CORE INTELLIGENCE PRESENTLY IS. ULTIMATELY, NOTHING IS FOR YOU (THE ULTIMATE, FUNDAMENTAL STATE, IS NOTHINGNESS–THE BEINGNESS OF NONBEING) HOWEVER, WHATEVER IS FOR YOU, ARE MERELY EXPERIENCES AND LESSONS TO TEACH YOU THAT WHATEVER YOU ARE THINKING, IS NOT YOU. SO, WHATEVER IS YOUR CORE VIBRATION (ALL THE THINGS THAT MATCH YOUR CURRENT CORE VIBRATION) REVEALS WHERE YOU ARE ON THE PATH BACK TO NOTHINGNESS. SO DO WHATEVER THE HELL YOU WANT.
Sunday, July 13, 2025
"...YE ARE GODS."
“Ye are Gods.”
What are you?
You are a God.
Gods do their pleasure.
What does the word God mean?
Creator.
You create.
You are a creator.
Who does the word “you” refer to?
“You” refers to either “you,” playing a temporary human, or “you,” being God.
Why do Gods play human?
For their pleasure.
What is known about humans?
They are intelligent, have will, purpose, intent, and do things.
What is known about Gods?
Not much, but looking at Earth, they are intelligent, have will, purpose and intent.
Gods play human. When a God plays a human, it is bound, limited, and finite. The human is a veil. It covers, cloaks, and conceals the God within.
All creation is for the pleasure and joy of Gods.
When a human child asks, “What am I?”
The current correct answer is, “You are a God, temporarily playing a human.”
“What is a God?” asks the child.
“It’s just a word. It means you are a creator, and are intelligent, have will, intent, and purpose.
“What is a human?” asks the child.
“It’s just a word. It means, you, a God, are currently housed in a body called human. Your human is intelligent, has will, intent, and purpose.
“If I am God, why play human?” asks the child.
“For pleasure, joy, and fun.”
“If I am God, wasn’t I having pleasure, joy and fun just being a God?”
“There are many varieties of pleasures, many different ways of experiencing pleasurable energies.”
Pleasure is just a word. Please yourself.
Joy is just a word. Enjoy pleasing yourself.
Happiness is just a word. Doing what you enjoy, pleases you.
Peace, bliss, ecstasy are just words for degrees of pleasing, enjoyment, doing.
Doing, having unlimited varieties of temporary experiences, is the joy of being a God.
“What about pain, suffering, destruction and death?”
“Just words for experiences that would not be possible without opposites: opposite of pain, comfort; opposite of suffering, enjoyment; opposite of destruction, construction; opposite of death, life.
You can’t know up if you haven’t been down, and you don’t know square if there’s no round, surely you know this is true. You know pleasure because you know pain, and you know loss because you know gain, and now you’re nobody’s fool.
Without love and hate; joy and sorrow; selfish and selfless; greed and generosity; exclusive and inclusive; power and powerless; vanity and humility; pride and disgrace; famous and infamous; poor and rich; sick and healthy; pain and comfort; suffering and enjoyment; build and destroy; death and life, God (you) would be an ignorant ignoramus fool who doesn’t know Jack Shit, or his brother Dumb As-Shit.
Tuesday, July 8, 2025
YOU HAVE TO BE OUT OF YOUR MIND TO ENJOY ALL THAT IS LIFE
YOU HAVE TO BE OUT OF YOUR MIND TO ENJOY ALL THAT IS LIFE
By the time you were old enough to realize you had a mind, it had already been turned into a personalized neurotic mess.
If you have issues with life (people, places, and things happening the way they happen) you’re personal mind thinks it’s a genius and life is the village idiot.
If you DON’T enjoy all that is life, your personal mind did it.
If you personalize life, your personal mind will screw you.
If you have preferences, prejudices, are exclusive, have likes, dislikes, biases, opinions, judge, have beliefs and draw conclusions about life, your personal mind is nuts.
And if your mind won’t let you enjoy just being alive having experiences, and thinks life has to have a purpose (other than dancing for the joy of dancing) go to Walmart and buy a new mind that hasn’t been programmed, indoctrinated, brainwashed and propagandized into a neurotic mess.
YOU HAVE TO BE OUT OF YOUR MIND TO ENJOY ALL THAT IS LIFE.
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Monday, July 7, 2025
AM I REAL?
HALLUCINATION IS BLAMED FOR EVERY MYSTICAL EXPERIENCE. Some think mystical experiences are not real.
Hallucinations, visions, dreams, imagination, thoughts, words, emotions, are energy forms, entities.
The question isn’t, “Is energy real?” The question is, “What is real?”
All that’s in question is the energy (intensity) of an experience. Some experiences are energy-physically-intense, others are super-charged-energy-intense. All are real.
Humans are energy organized into what humans call, humans. Humans are energy-forms experiencing various intensities of energy.
Energy forms come and go, organize and disorganize.
Energy experiencing various possibilities of itself.
Human energy-forms are conscious, or aware (self-aware) of their state of being, and get attached, entangled and identified with the form they’re in, and don’t want their collection of energy-form-memories (consciousness) to disorganize (die).
For a self-aware, conscious energy-form to stay trapped with one package of memories, forever, would be boring.
The thrilling motivation of life (energy) is to experience itself being all in can be. There is no such thrill in being a rock forever (or a conscious self-aware human identity, forever).
THE BOTTOM-LINE: Life is energy. The temporary energy-form you call human wants to live forever as the personality it presently is (and it will until that energy-form has had enough of itself and disorganizes to reorganize into the next possibility.
THE UNSOLVABLE MYSTERY OF LIFE AFTER DEATH (WHAT AM I?)
I am conscious, or aware that my brain/mind has thoughts. I observe and watch its thoughts. Is mind watching itself? Is mind self-aware, or is there an “I,” watching? Is there value in knowing which it is, or does it matter?
If the mind is self-aware, it is self-analyzing, self-correcting. If there is an “I,” presence, it can analyze the mind and correct its thinking. Either works. So why the question?
When the body and mind die, it’s the end of both, but if there is an “I,” presence, maybe that presence lives after the body/mind dies. THAT’S the reason for the question, “Is there an “I,” and if so, does the “I” survive death of the body?
From a practical view, it seems ridiculous to experience the pain of life, to live and learn, and then all dies, and there is no “I” to continue experiencing and learning.
I suppose it’s comforting either way. You stop living, stop experiencing the pain and pleasure of life, and it’s over. Or, you continue living and experiencing more pain and pleasure of life. However, it would be enlightening to know which it is.
I have experienced being conscious way above my body, and when I realized I was way above my body, I slammed back into it. I have experienced being in outer space with a less dense body, and with no body what-so-ever, and both times upon realizing I was not in my physical body, I slammed back into. What am I to make of this?
You could say, the body has consciousness, OR consciousness has a body. Which is it?
If consciousness has a body, and can separate, then perhaps life after death is possible. If body has conscious, perhaps it all ends at death of the body.
It’s a mystery, and that’s why people who try to figure out the mysteries of life are called mystics, or scientists.
Let’s resolve this one mystery, this one question: Does the “I” live after the death of its body? Is there proof? What kind of proof (belief and faith are not proof). Would that proof suffice in a court of law? Would it meet scientific proof? Personal proof, a personal experience, cannot be repeated for others, thus no court of law proof, no scientific proof, just personal proof.
Leaving your physical body and wandering around–is it hallucination or proof? Is personal proof even possible, considering the definitions we give words? Using the word “hallucination” to explain away every “mystical” experience, may be an error. It may be that while alive, there can be no proof, which means you have to die and stay dead to experience the truth (when you die, you’ll either know you are still alive, or you won’t know because you’re dead, which reduces the possibility of know and telling others to zero. Believe what you will. And yet, BELIEVERS MIGHT BE RIGHT, but they too won’t know (or not) until they’re dead.
What proof (if any) would convince you there is, or isn’t, life after your body is fertilizer?
Thursday, July 3, 2025
NO LIFE REVIEW WHEN DEAD - HUMANS ARE REAL - I AM THE SUN
FROM CREATION’S PERSPECTIVE
I AM the sun. Nothing keeps me from shining. I always shine. A portion of me is now shining inside a human baby. The baby shines. It glows. The baby has no blocks, no issues.
The baby’s mind gets programmed with likes and dislikes, develops preferences. The likes, dislikes, preferences affect the baby’s body. As the baby grows, its mind is indoctrinated with opinions, biases, prejudices, beliefs, judgement, and draws conclusions. All of them affect its body. By the time the glowing baby becomes an adult, it no longer shines or glows as bright as it used to. Human adults have many issues that block me, the sun. When a human mind is quiet, its issues and blocks affect its body less.
Humans are real. They are real beings. I created them. They have lives. They think and do things. They are very entertaining.
I power humans. I am what makes them shine. I am the sun. That’s why babies glow, are radiant, and shine so bright, and why kids are so exuberant and run all over the place. They are free of concerns, issues and blocks, which allows me to pop out all over the place.
Why do happy people shine? They got what they wanted, or, they shine because they have no wants–don’t need anything to shine.
I shine. I’m the sun. That’s what I do. However, you can block me, use sun block, or have issues. Both work.
Humans are real good at exposing each others issues. When they reveal other’s issues they are a blessing to each other. Imagine going through life and no one calls you to account. You’d be so self-absorbed no one would want to be around you.
Oh, by the way, humans tend to teach there’s a life review when they die. In that review, they say, humans get to feel how they made others feel. Not true. There is no review. When they show up dead, every cheers, and they cheer loudest for the ones that exposed more issues than anyone else. You know its true. If you expose the issues and blocks that stopped me from flowing in a person, that person would thank you (after its dead). So go ahead, poke buttons, make fun, help humans get rid of their issues that block me from filling them with (me) sunshine, happiness, joy, bliss and ecstasy. Eventually they will thank you, if they don’t kill you on earth.
Wednesday, July 2, 2025
words
A baby is born aware. A baby doesn’t know it is aware. A baby is a biological sensing organism, a life-form, an energy-form.
All babies get programmed. You were programmed.
An infant doesn’t know anything. It doesn’t think. It has a thinker, but the thinker’s gas tank is empty. It has no words. It gets programmed with words.
Young kids don’t give a thought, a thought. They have a thought, and they do the thought. Kids act-out their thoughts. When older, they think they are their thoughts. They think they are, THE THINKER.
You were taught a lot of words, learned a lot of words. You think with words. You think you’re THE THINKER. But before there was THE THINKER, there was THE AWARENESS.
Some folks think, “I think, therefore I am.” Those folks are partly right. I think, therefore I am a thinker. But since you can stop thinking, and just be aware, so what are you really?
When you are asleep, you’re not aware you’re asleep. Your awareness awakens when you awaken, and then you know you were asleep. So sometimes, you are not aware, so what are you really?
Some folks think they are consciousness. Consciousness can become unconscious, so what are you really?
Humans come and go. You can stop thinking. Awareness can be unaware. And consciousness can be unconscious (all those words, and they don’t define what we are).
Words attempt to define describe what humans are: I AM A THINKER; I AM AN AWARENESS; I AM A CONSCIOUSNESS (some use the words, I AM AN OBSERVER. Words leave humans wanting. The truth is elsewhere.
The truth can be experienced in the stillness of silence, when the thinker, the awareness, the consciousness, the observer STOP doing their things.
There are many dimensions to life. To enter, STOP thinking. STOP the words. STOP regurgitating your programs.
And just as we are beginning to make progress, THE THINKER wants to know, “What am I?”
Well then, obviously, it’s oxymoron time–contradiction, juxtaposition, opposite meanings, paradoxical-word-salad-time. How but by using the word, THINKER, to describe THE THINKER, can the fruits of non-thinking be experienced?
Besides thinking, there is the word, REALIZATION, or perception (and now we’re back to the word, AWARENESS). It’s a mad circle of words.
THE EXPERIENCE: I stopped thinking. I was sitting, eyes closed, with not a thought bouncing around in my noggin–THE THINKER. The tank had plenty of fuel (words) but I gave them not a thought, no monologue, didn’t engage them, didn’t play with them, paid them no attention. I focused on my breathing, breath in, breath out, breath in, breath out, AND THEN IT HAPPENED. I fell asleep (well, that happened a lot, but not THIS time).
NOTE: The “secret” is, FOCUS. It doesn’t matter WHAT you focus your attention on, just do it intently, concentrate, zoom in. Whether you’re focused on a rock, an ant, a flower, or NOTHING, it’s the FOCUS that propels you into a different dimension, or state of being (different state of awareness). However, if you are aware that you are aware, that’s still your thinker, thinking–that’s like knowing you are asleep. If you know you’re asleep, you’re not asleep. You’re awake. In the state or dimension of just being, you are not aware that you are aware (you are only aware of what’s happening).
I was intensely focused on something. Next thing I was aware of was that I was looking down at my body from way up high. Then a thought appeared, “I am big.” At the thought, I slammed back into my body. Another time I was in space in an energy body, and another time without an energy body.
WHAT ARE YOU? You’re either aware you are having an experience, or you are the experience. The real you IS THE EXPERIENCE. The REAL YOU doesn’t HAVE experiences. THE EXPERIENCE IS YOU.
WHAT OTHER WORDS DESCRIBE “THE EXPERIENCE IS YOU”?
I AM THE EXPERIENCE. I AM LIFE. I AM ALSO THE HUMAN EXPERIENCING LIFE. I AM THAT I AM, AND I AM THAT, AND THAT, AND THAT.
WHAT VALUE IN KNOWING THAT? WHEN YOU KNOW YOU ARE THE EXPERIENCE, YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE NOT. WHAT’S THE VALUE IN KNOWING WHAT YOU ARE NOT?
YOU NOW KNOW THAT ALL THE “YOU ARE NOTS” ARE TEMPORARY MANIFESTATIONS OF THE I AM, THAT I AM, PLAYING A GAME CALLED LIFE.
WHAT VALUE IN KNOWING THAT I AM THAT I AM, IS ME, PLAYING ME, AND THAT I DON’T REALLY EXIST? IT KICKS THE ANGST OUT OF YOU. YOU’RE NO LONGER neurotic, afraid, anxious, stressed, no more guilt, remorse. ALL THAT’S LEFT ARE THE FEELINGS OF PEACE, HAPPINESS, JOY, BLISS, ECSTASY, AND APPRECIATION.